Hey anita

I didnt know this saying about the bees but i googled it and i found it very heart-warming, perhaps u are right 🙂 (even tho this makes me feel nice, i do feel some fear for the “responsibility” too 🙁 )

It’s weird that we’ve spent 5 months exchanging nice things here 🙂

You are right, this word could be a better fit because i don’t seek personal gain out of her. Damn, when i think of how good i make her feel, she smiles, etc, i see her as such an innocent and kind soul and i wanna cry because i feel like i’m gonna fail her 🙁

Hey Dear Bee’s-Knees-Confused 🙂

When you “see her as such an innocent and kind soul” and you don’t want to “fail her”, it feels to me like you’re talking about a little girl- not a woman your age.

As if she’s a little girl and you (the grown-up) are responsible for her..

I can develop this thinking further, but I’ll wait to read your thoughts about it.

🐝 Anita

Do you see you (“a bit fragile and innocent”) in her. A projection, something people do all the time?

This may be too heavy of a question.

Much older than you, Confused, I can feel my own fragility and Innocence. It doesn’t scare me anymore: to be fragile and vulnerable. It’s only human.

I hope I’m 🙏 making sense

🙏🤍💧 Anita

How can i know if that’s a projection? I think it’s because of her words i was led to think that..

Well, i feel none of those things for myself, is this bad? 🙁

Same here anita

Hey anita

I mean the fragile and innocence things, i dont feel them for myself at all.

I was referring to the sleeping part 🙂

Hey anita

I really can’t tell about those things, i feel unable to connect those dots in me..

Good 🌃/ 🌄 Confused:

About connecting the dots: It makes a huge difference for me. It doesn’t make my life perfect (HA HA), but it makes my experience of life so much better.

Seems to me that there was the boy Confused and then a gap, or a disconnect and the adult Confused is estranged from the boy who is still very much there, part of you.

The adult Confused can’t or doesn’t want to connect the dots to the boy.

🤍 Anita

Good evening anita

I really want to connect them and try to realize how it works but i cant like comprehend it logically when i think back to it.

Yes there was a gap/disconnect during my teens and i think it followed me until today, i think i can’t its not that i dont want to.

Also yesterday i was thinking and i realized, i could never show/feel excitement when receiving gifts and stuff from previous girlfriends either, i would always pretend to make them feel better and not seem awkward, but inside i wouldn’t be touched by the gifts, just a bit by the gesture and that’s all. Idk why i pressured myself so much this time with this girl, but her gifts touched me so much i cried a lot 🙂

Haha emojis giving u a hard time every time.