Hey Dear Confused:

“What else did it improve?”- you sounded calmer, more clearly thinking.

“Adding other people’s experiences don’t really help.”- you mean her (GF’s) experience? Can you elaborate?

“I can’t even get sad… I can’t feel good while laughing anymore either”- you mean right now/within the hour/today? Since yesterday?

And again, trying to force feelings backfires.

Anita

Today she texted me to check in on me and how i am feeling with my stomach issues and while i should be appreciating that, i felt nothing, i feel nothing for everyone and everything 🙁

We discussed what seemed “bad” to her and it was something she understood wrong, but i think it all boils down on her inability to trust me and nitpicking everything i say trying to find something in my words. She then said “i just wanted to feel like u care enough about me 🙁 ”
This phrase would have me melting before november but now i just can’t feel emotions for anyone and it’s really annoying..

Hey anita

Yeah it doesn’t feel nice at all, like im living life on mute 🙁 I spoke with the psych today and i told him about the side effects and that i’ve completed 1 month and he said “well, i told u what i believe, u are <<frozen>>, not exactly depressed” and he told me to take 5mg (half the dose) for the next 5 days, stop it completely and go visit him next week to discuss and find a solution. He asked if i have thoughts on the extremes (black & white) and i told him no, i am mostly apathetic and can’t give a damn, also libido is gone which i hope comes back after the med is off my system.. i am a bit scared of the thoughts coming back tho but we’ll see..

I know, my sweet babygirl needs reassurance, she’s scared and hesitant and i can’t give her what i would have given her last year 🙁
She’s coming in the 9th of August for 4 days, booked the tickets today! I can’t say i got excited, just a 10% maybe but i am trying not to give into the thoughts of “why didn’t i feel excitement”, etc.

I hope so, anita. I wonder when will this go away? I believe its a depression of some form 🙁

I did yes, because when i read what what she texted me i smiled a little bit, but that’s about it 🙁

I think i don’t wanna try another med anytime soon. They say Bupropion helps with depression/anhedonia but it also increased anxiety and thoughts so maybe i shouldn’t try that yet.

He said the same thing he told me 4 months ago, that i am emotionally blunted/flat but we call it “frozen” sometimes in greek. He did tell me that he didn’t believe SSRIs would help my case to be fair. He also said to take them with anti-psychotics but i didnt like the effects so i didnt take those.