How are you, Mimia? I hope to read back from you 🙏 Anita

Hey 🌙🦉 Confused:

By changing thinking => changing feelings, I mean something like (taken from your post only 4 minutes ago):

Thought: I must “be crazy about her” (feeling inadequate for… not feeling crazy)=> Thought: I need not be crazy about anyone. I don’t owe anyone Crazy 🐔” ( feeling adequate for NOT feeling crazy)

I think that what it comes down (or up) to is about Confused giving Confused the break he needs and deserves, and no longer giving Confused a difficult time!

Love Confused first!

✨️🌿✨️ Anita

You are welcome, Dear Confused:

It’s understandable to miss feeling good, and to remember it better than it was, forgetting the times when it did not feel that great- a sort of selective emotional memory.

Actually, quite often since December you felt pretty good from time, having lots of fun talking with her (and forgetting those times?)

Yet, no doubt a whole lot of the time (since Dec), you feel disconnected and flat. The THINKING feeds the flatness.

We talked about CBT which is based on the principle that changing thinking = changing feelings.

We talked about psychiatric drugs that block obsessive thinking, leading to feeling better.

You mentioned a recent therapist: does she do CBT? Did you discuss psych drugs with her?

Or any other strategy?

🤔 Anita

Good Morning Can’t-Be-Sure-Of-Anything Confused:

What’s below is new to me (I had no idea!)

Copilot: “When a child is raised around unpredictability, emotional volatility, or inconsistent responses, the nervous system learns that certainty is dangerous and that the safest position is to keep doubting. Doubt becomes a survival strategy.

The nervous system learns that confidence gets punished, having a stable opinion or feeling can trigger an explosion, being “sure” makes you visible, and visibility is unsafe. So, the child’s body learns a survival stance: “Don’t commit. Don’t settle. Don’t trust your perception. Keep everything open and fluid so you can adapt instantly.” This is protective doubt.

Concrete examples of protective doubt in a violent, invalidating home: 1. A child feels angry because a parent broke a promise. If the child says, “You said you’d come,” the parent explodes. So, the child learns: “Maybe I’m wrong.” “Maybe I misunderstood.” This doubt protects them from provoking the parent’s rage.

2. The parent denies something obvious (“I didn’t yell,” “You’re imagining things”). If the child insists on the truth, the parent escalates. So, the child learns: “Maybe I misheard.” “Maybe I’m too sensitive.” “Maybe it’s my fault.” Doubting their own perception keeps them from challenging the parent — which keeps them safer.

3. The parent’s mood changes unpredictably. If the child assumes “everything is fine,” they get blindsided. So, the child learns: “Don’t trust calm moments.” “Stay alert.” “Something might happen.” Doubt keeps them prepared…

The simplest way to say it- In a violent or invalidating home: Certainty = danger. Doubt = safety. Doubt keeps the child small, quiet, flexible, and unthreatening — which reduces the risk of triggering the parent. This is why protective doubt forms…

When a child grows up with a mother whose reactions are unpredictable — warm one moment, angry the next, loving today, rejecting tomorrow — the child’s nervous system learns that certainty is unsafe. If the child is sure of what they feel (“I’m happy,” “I’m scared,” “I want this”), that certainty can be shattered instantly by the mother’s sudden shift. So, the child begins to doubt their own experience as a way to stay safe: “Maybe I’m wrong… maybe I shouldn’t say anything… maybe I shouldn’t feel this.”

PROTECTIVE DOUBT is the kind of doubt a child develops when their mother’s reactions are unpredictable, volatile, or emotionally unsafe. The child learns that being sure of anything — a feeling, a memory, a preference, a boundary — can lead to punishment, ridicule, or sudden anger. So, the nervous system creates a reflexive habit of questioning everything: “Maybe I’m wrong… maybe I shouldn’t say this… maybe I shouldn’t feel this.” This doubt keeps the child flexible, quiet, and less likely to provoke danger. It is not a personality trait; it is a survival strategy. In this sense, protective doubt is doubt as safety — a way for the child to stay small and avoid triggering the parent’s instability.

LEARNED DOUBT is what happens when that childhood survival strategy becomes automatic in adulthood. Even when the environment is no longer dangerous, the nervous system keeps using the same pattern because it was never taught anything else. The adult now doubts their feelings, decisions, perceptions, and relationships — not because the present is unsafe, but because the body still operates from the old rule: “Certainty leads to pain.” This is why adults who grew up with unpredictable caregivers often feel like nothing “sticks,” nothing feels solid, and everything is open to question. Learned doubt is simply protective doubt carried forward — a reflex that outlived the danger it was designed to manage.”

What says Confused?

Anita

I forgot to elaborate, and would like to do so tomorrow.

Dear Peter:

Tonight on the East Coast, it is May 27, 2026- exactly TEN YEARS since you submitted your very first post in the tiny buddha forums!

Happy Tiny Buddha Decade Anniversary!

🙏👏🎂💃🎶✨️ Anita