Hey 🌿 Confused:

Your 1st message is on page 104 and the 2nd on page 105, and because I’m using my phone and can’t open a 2nd window, I’ll answer the first here, and the second next.

I am listening to the news about the heat wave in Europe. At least 40 people drowned trying to cool off in lakes, rivers and such. I understand your GF sufferring, but glad she was able to laugh nonetheless.

How’s the weather in Greece? Do you (or GF) have ACs? I don’t and during the only heat wave I experienced here since I moved here in 2013 (summer 2021) I filled in the bath with cold water and kept soaking in it every hour or so, plus using ice packs in- between.

You say you don’t remember if you were scared when your father threatened plenty of times that he’d leave. Considering how very attached you were to him (you shared that you were), it’d make sense that you were not indifferent to his threats, at least not in the first few times that he threatened.

Your 🧠 doesn’t remember but your body remembers: “Heart racing, body heat rising” (yesterday).

Two more weeks (SSRI) and report back to him makes sense.

Anita

Dear Confused

At some point in our convo, she took like 25 mins to answer and because her previous replies were not too sweet (she was indeed affectionate but my damn mind setting high standards again), i started thinking that she’s tired of me, ………

Do you read back your posts? Can you see patterns emerging? Impatience leads to anxiety or possibly vice versa. It was not so long ago that people living even a short distance apart would have to write each other letters & would have to wait days/weeks & even months for a reply. This modern busy world has reduced our ability to be patient & raised our expectations for instant gratification/input. I am going to the toilet now & then I am going to wash my dishes & then get the clothes off the line fold them up & put them away too much info for you? I will just politely sign off.
Roberta

Hey anita

Yeah she’s having a hard time with her autoimmune and the heat because it makes it worse and AC units are not allowed in Germany because they are eco-friendly, lol. I have AC unit in my house thankfully, i can’t stand the heat. The weather here is hotter than usual being only june and i think its gonna get even hotter.. well maybe i will be at the beach soaking in water haha.

She’s still suffering but thankfully the weather will get cooler in the next days so its gonna be fine. She is trying with fans and ice in buckets..
I am not feeling very well in the past days and i think it’s because of the med. It makes me so emotionally blunt that it’s complete apathy. I am out with friends, feeling irritated, not having fun, nothing goes through. We’ve been texting daily tho and today i gotta say, my mood kinda lifted in the last 4-5 hours (even tho the thoughts are still bothering me), we’ve had some spicy chats (libido came back like a 50%) and we are still sharing info about our day. I guess pretty ok overall. I have to wait 2 more weeks to see if i will adapt to the med and then maybe i will tell my doctor to think about adding Wellbutrin or maybe quitting SSRIs for good this time? I am not sure what to do..

Hey Roberta

U are not wrong but idk if that stems more out of my own fears and insecurities rather than impatience and instant gratification (even tho that is happening indeed).And yes i am seeing some patterns in me, even in real time while going through them.
Haha i hope ur clothes are folded okay!

Oh yeah its gonna be cooler after monday i think, she gotta hang in there for a couple more days! Oh maybe i misunderstood what she told me but she did mention that u need a specific permit/plan to install one and also the electricity bill is gonna skyrocket!

Remind me again anita, u live in the US, but where exactly? I dont like the rain, i prefer spring and sun.

You are right, i did mention the same thing again before the med and ur idea is good actually. My therapist also said to write down if i can, when the negative feelings arise and what was i doing/thinking right beforehand. Which i think was me checking my feelings most of the time. I just cant leave it alone, ugh!

ConFused…