It’s a very strange feeling because we shared a year of our everyday lives (even if it was online) and it hurts!

How can i know if it’s F for me? (even though i had the dreams/flashbacks)

I am fine with it, i make peace with death pretty quickly. She died of cancer (well, the chemos wore her down). I took it well because i was with her most of the days and i saw where this was going, so i “prepared” myself better than the rest of the family, i was the one that found her not breathing. Well, i don’t feel like i had a strong bond with her, i was pretty much disconnected from my parents since the age of 13 i think. I still cried and mourned, at my own pace though.

Hello anita

I think it could very well be the A and D and maybe F? Idk about the last one though..

I take some Omega 3 supplements almost daily but i see no difference 🙁

Hey anita

Yeah i don’t like how numb it makes me so i stopped taking it..should i tell the doctor? idk

Same goes for you, anita, you seem like a really nice person, always willing to help.. I am looking forward to that too, thank you 🙂

Oh is it possible that you report your own posts by accident on your phone? Maybe that’s the case..

Today we texted with the girl and she said she is getting disappointed by this situation between us and perhaps it would be best if we end it because it affects her aswell. I told her i completely understand but i can’t let her go, can’t give her the “before” (pre-confusion) part either. She said she will think about things and we’ll talk again. Today i feel a deep void in my chest-throat and the thought of her makes me cry so much. What is happening with me? The thought of me letting her go feels very bad like i’m gonna lose “my person” but i can’t give her what she deserves either, it’s very difficult 🙁

Yeah i started online with 2 different people.
No i am still seeing her because i feel she might know some things, but the doctor said otherwise so idk really, im more confused now haha
I will stop the meds though, it numbs me even more and i dont have the psychotic thoughts anymore.

I have no routine, wake up, do some things in the house maybe, meet with friends, work, home again.

I thought u had admin rights in this page.

I am numb, zero feelings, not even sadness.. i think it’s the meds because they say it numbs you. I really dont like it and i told the doctor about it but he said that i have to take it for a while and the symptoms will subside.

I saw it and i dont know why it’s happening, i never got to see your posts.

This is what i’ve read too, now im trying to accept it since there is nothing else i can do but i really hope for it..

Yeah but idk if they are running now.. I guess they are because i cant stop thinking about the situation?
Maybe, i have to try this and see where it leads, but i think maybe i need something else to wake my feelings up.

He mentioned things that i experienced (also when i was a child) like he knew what i was talking about.

I am not very optimistic with my situation but we’ll see. Thank you very much 🙂