Hello, thank you for being here, this is my favorite website to take a break with at work.
I am a mental health crisis responder/supervisor for 5 1/2 years. The agency hired a new director 2 years ago, and she seemed friendly, helpful, wise, relatable. Six months ago, things changed overnight, she became a different person, suddenly questioning everyone’s roles and duties and abilities. Me included, I was in the middle of the busiest part of the year with crises, and director decides she needs to change the way the crisis program is being run, and making subtle statements that I am not doing my job, and can’t be trusted. I have many years of work behind me, a strong value in good work ethics, always doing the very best that I can and more, have never been questioned about my work or person. These statements continued, and changes continued without my input as the supervisor of my program. We have a crisis team and we are a great team, we communicate, we laugh, we help each other, we are always available, we know our jobs.
I have fibromyalgia and my brain fog sometimes causes a lag in memory, and I was given a written warning about an administrative task. I know those tasks are important, however my crisis work takes priority, patients take priority. This director has yet to understand crisis work and all that is involved.
I have followed transpersonal psychology for many years, many beautiful spiritual beings who give their enlightened messages to others for growth and journeys. I do also have trauma from a marriage, and am feeling as though this director may have been love bombing us and then became her true self. I am recognizing my triggers and reacting emotionally has brought on what has felt like being gas lit.
My first reaction to her demands turned into tears for me for that is how I often express frustration, and she apologized for “hurting me.” I had also been given another warning about a client that I did not, in her opinion, “do enough work” for, and the warning was written in very false statements which I did discuss with her.
I have since decided to take a different strategy, taking on a more stoic, non reactionary response to anything that she presents to me.
Recently, a very long time coworker was put on disciplinary leave for very small issues that did not warrant what she is being put through. I am very worried that I also have this target on my back as the director continues to point out that I am not to be trusted.
Before this director, no one had any issues with trusting me about anything.
Anyway, I am probably venting more that I am asking questions but I would be very grateful for input. I absolutely love my job, I love knowing the people in crisis are given help, and a second chance at a more positive life and well being. I love being a part of something so meaningful for others. Thank you.