July 1, 2019 at 11:01 am #301619
This is my first post on TB, and I have a question: can I ask for what I need here?
I’m really miserable and depressed, and I’m pretty much all alone in the world with no one to turn to for emotional support. I’m having a hard time just keeping going every day. I’ve recently considered calling a suicide hotline even though I’m not actively suicidal. I really don’t want to die, but life just doesn’t seem worth the struggle right now. And I’m just lonely and, like I said, have no one to turn to.
I could eventually share my story… I see some people share tons of info here, many of them sound so much like me… but at the moment, I’m overwhelmed and don’t have the energy to write much. I should probably seek therapy–and maybe find a support group–but I don’t even have the energy to look for a therapist and make the phone call.
Right now, I think it might help me if I could just have someone to check in with every day or couple of days. For the moment, I’d prefer not to receive any advice because I can barely handle daily life, and my to-do list grows every day like mushrooms after the rain. Even when I tell myself, “Just do three things from the to-do list today, that’s it,” I still have a hard time getting myself to anything. And then more things to accomplish come up. Crap, I have so many problems.
I want to know that someone cares that I still exist. I need a friend.July 1, 2019 at 11:38 am #301631
Dear Lost soul:
Maybe I can be your friend, in the context of this website. I was very much alone, excruciatingly lonely and so very tired most of the time, a whole lot of the time, spaced out, removed from life.
“I want to know that someone cares that I still exist”- I think that I wasn’t sure so much of the time that I existed. Seems like as humans, born to be social, we don’t really exist all alone. Social connections, at least one, to start with, is what breathes life into us.
Do post anytime you want to, and I will be glad to reply to you. I hope other members reply to you as well.
anitaJuly 1, 2019 at 1:33 pm #301659
Hello Lost Soul,
I’m really glad that I’ve just checked in and saw your post. You’ve done the most important thing in reaching out. Well done.
I know what it’s like to be so exhausted that you cannot even manage a phone call. I know you don’t feel able to deal with advice but can you do a simple breathing exercise. Can you manage to put your hand on your solar plexus (at the point between your lower rib cage) and breathe into it for a few minutes. You have to breathe anyway but it is quite possible that you are only using the top part of the chest ‘shallow breathing’ instead of breathing fully into your lungs (deep breathing). This is particularly helpful when you are trying to sleep. It’s also good to imagine angel wings wrapped around you keeping you safe.
Of course you can ask for what you need? Everyone who replies to you is showing that they care and if you need a friend (friends) we are here.
Look forward to hearing from you soon.
PeggyJuly 1, 2019 at 8:16 pm #301711
Hi Lost Soul,
I’ll be your friend! 🙂