Dear Anita:
Hope you’re having a good weekend

So, I’m thinking about stepping back from my LDR that I talked to you about. Because I’m constantly thinking why I should have to wait for something which have less chances and top of that suffer from intimacy and impatience instead of just have a good time with someone who’s near me?
I also ask myself is would worth the wait? and I’m in my head I’m like not really there’s lot of unexplored adventuress people that I haven’t met yet then who knows?
At the moment I’m not desperate for love either. I’m just focused more on different areas of my life

However, I’m hesitating to tell her (We already not talking for 3 days – Because I said “From your side there should be some efforts to remove the distance”) Maybe stepping back and rethink this as friends is better idea?

Haha, I like that you challenge my way of thinking but yeah you do have a good point!

Oh okay I also think I maybe doubting on my abilities even though I am good at that?

Dear Anita 🙂
How are you doing today?

What do you think what’s actually happening when I’m not able to accept good compliments? It’s more like Meh for me

Also Another thing,
Today I was talking to my friend, and I started to realize how much potential I have???
I have so many skills, Endless possibilities and there so much I can do! Then why I’m not able to maintain that energy of being enough? or idk deserving? I don’t have any idea how to explain

Coucou Anita:

First of I’m impressed with how much depth you go for. You’re very insightful
But don’t worry I’m not uncomfortable with addressing Dear

(2) Very Important thing you pointed out that I didn’t knew before. I do accept sometimes I talk very energetic and optimistic way but you’re right it’s not everyone’s cup of tea. Point taken

When replying to a person’s message/ communicating with a person, pay attention to their style and somewhat adjust your outgoingness and optimism to theirs.
NOTED

Well why not?
I think you’re very mature and insightful person and I can learn lot from you as well
So I’m ready for that if you don’t have problem with that

Dear Anita,

How was your weekend?

Hmm I think you’re right I do have to work on that since everything isn’t in our hands. I do need to see the good progress that I am making so I can build up my confidence

About believing in your inherent worth:
So I think more or less has to do with my Childhood Emotional Neglect (CEN) like lot of people my parents didn’t knew my emotional needs and they did what they thought is right for me. They just wanted to protect me so…
So I’ve dealt with very Low self-esteem, self-compassion and self-confidence but I think it’s lot better than before Although I did built up kind of Insecure-avoidant attachment pattern which I’m still working on
Another thing is that in my teenage years I was very good in education area so they really had high hopes for me so I felt pressure, got really anxious, chosen wrong college course and eventually drop out from college because I knew I didn’t liked it and started my professional career earlier without even bachelor’s because I had good tech skills even at that time. And I’m living on my own since 16 years of age. And that time my parents were supportive of my decision, and they are still supportive.. It was a bad decision to start profession journey without bachelors’ I realized that so I started my bachelor’s as a distance student and full-time job…
But still they (Also me) want a good stability at this age which I’m not there yet. Even though I should be and I’m trying
Maybe that’s why I’m not feeling my worth?
Sorry if it’s too much info or maybe not really relevant… But I just felt like saying it so

Dear Anita:
I hope you’re having great Sunday morning 🌞

To the answer, I actually had to look up how to know if you’re self-confident.
According to usf.edu
It means you accept and trust yourself and have a sense of control in your life. You know your strengths and weakness well and have a positive view of yourself. You set realistic expectations and goals, communicate assertively, and can handle criticism.

Let me break it to you now

It means you accept and trust yourself
I accept myself but I don’t I trust myself very highly because I feel what if things go this way instead of this?  and also, I have hard time trusting other people as well

have a sense of control in your life
Not Always. I used to have very controlling behavior about everything but thanks to meditation and mindfulness practice I’m getting lot better

You know your strengths and weakness
I do and still exploring those

have a positive view of yourself

I do have positive view of myself

You set realistic expectations and goals
Yes I do. I’m very rational thinker and minimalistic as well so

communicate assertively, and can handle criticism.
Both Yes very well

To your definition
a feeling of trust in your abilities and judgment – I do have trust in my abilities but if I’m trying too hard for too long yet I don’t see the progress I get frustrated for the time that I wasted, which makes it worse and that cycle uuugh
I just wanna feel like I’m making a good progress tbh

believing in your inherent worth: that inherently, you are not inferior to anyone.
I think I do believe in my worth but still have to work
I don’t compare myself to others like before though