thanks a lot arthorgirl;) good luck with your profession as a journalist;) One of my favorite quotes is “You can be the candle or you can be the mirror that reflects it.”~Unknown. You are a candle helping light the way for others. I agree that in today’s society we focus more on money and emotions when we should be working on helping build community. I also enjoy writing as well especially quotes and poetry. I would like to someday post them on a social media site and help spread positivity. I also enjoy pushing myself working on the new puzzles of me, finding out new ways to be more positive and deepen my relationship with the divine. There is a technique a practice when people around me are negative, I imagine a mirror and I imagine the negative energy being reflected from its course into the ground to be dissolved. I agree at times since I also feel two-dimensional like many people don’t see the many sides of me, but they only see what’s on the surface and don’t see beyond into the backdrop. It’s like a drawing on a paper which seems limited, but I try not to set limits within the lines and see all the space that I can cover and shed light upon. I don’t really care much for jewelry and I only keep a watch to keep on schedule, but I rarely glance at it. Most of the time, I just rely on my intuition. I think true power isn’t money, fame, athleticism or beauty; it’s the ability to see the star that is within you and let it shine for others. I don’t mind fame and money when it is used to help others and doesn’t seem too selfish or shallow. I think I am learning more and being more accepting of myself, when I feel doubt I remind myself that I am a spiritual being with a purpose and not just an insignificant physical being. When I meditate I allow the divine to enter into me and tell myself “I am living for the divine and that’s what counts.” There are so many people in this world that set limitations on themselves even through their religion that they forget that God, higher power, etc. are supposed to be loving and encompassing, not one that limits people from experiencing who they truly are. I find that society sometimes puts limits on gender and women often make less than men, but I am working on transcending all of the negative conventions of society. To me it doesn’t matter what race, gender, ethnicity or religion you have, what matters is that you live your life in happiness and you help others.

I agree, anita that an inner bully sometimes criticizes me. i have an online class with a teacher who is helping me learn more on how to empower myself. whatever happens that inner critic doesn’t stay with me for long before i manage to pretend that I am air and I am my soul and all the earth of my physical negativities drop away and are dissolved within the ground. my teacher tells me that the critics don’t live the life i live, so i shouldn’t listen to them. She said “Pay them no mind unless what they say is true. Pay them no mind since they do not help you and only cage your soul.” also i have read that stress and negativity only bring more of it and i realize i want to work on a positive life. i am also learning how to stand up for myself more and use humor to defend myself at times, other times i just ignore people. She has been teaching us psychic protection such as grounding, cleansing and also emanating a positive vibration like a bubble around your aura.

Thanks for clarifying anita;) ap scores came out now and they were expected. i got a 3 on my ap world history exam which means i’m qualified for college credit. i haven’t been the greatest with english ever since i shifted my interests more to math and science so i got a 2 which means possibly qualified for ap english. i wonder if there is a way to generate power and confidence without appearing snobbish. every time i try to generate self-confidence someone thinks i’m being cynical. i have managed to improve my circulation and health by doing a journey through the elements meditation which is a meditation from tibetan buddhism. i imagine the universe is filled with fire and i take it into my body, mind and soul with my breath and i imagine the fire of the divine entering into me keeping me warm and giving me energy (often is good for the winter or whenever my body temperature just drops for some reason), i do a similar thing for water which keeps me cool in the summer. i also use air to feel weightless and it helps me let go of my physical body when i have doubts about it, also i use earth the same way imagining my body becoming heavy like the earth and dropping into the ground letting the negative energies sink into the ground.

thanks a lot anita;) i feel like i have become quite detached from the world when someone is angry, i just look at them with a detachment like i don’t care. people spend so much time rushing and letting anger get to them as the seconds of life pass them by when they could be reflecting on how to make themselves better or cultivate more positive thoughts. i know my detachment and optimism annoys some people as i also have begun to develop a solid self-assurance that doesn’t care what others think of me. some people think my detachment means i’m being cynical, aloof in my own world or just too optimistic, but i believe that life is a dance and that even without music, the wings of the soul shouldn’t be caged. a lot of my policy is just to let things go and expect disappointments and just let them go, don’t let them tie you down from experiencing the beauty of what life is meant to be, one of adventure and compassion. the meditations i do keep stress under control and i have seen an improvement in my mental clarity (i have also developed a stronger intuition) and they have given me a sense of vibrancy, a sense of being and power that i seem to emanate. also i no longer fight the dark parts of me, but i allow them to be as i balance them with aspects of light, everyone has a little of gray in them and that balance is what is right. we only need to let the lighter parts of our selves shine, in every star there is a yearning to be massive and powerful to become a black hole (i love science) to suck everything even light in, but i want to live my life in the void of light and it doesn’t matter how massive (how much fame, athleticism, etc.) i have, what matters is that i embrace the person i am who is healthy and happy. i find that i don’t worry about my weight anymore, i just eat healthy and tell myself “it doesn’t matter if they don’t like me, for i am my own self, a divine being and i am happy.” the positive thinking has helped me tone my body and i am quite happy with myself, there is still an inner critic but it is less abusive and most of the time when it seems to sneak up on me to become an inner bully, i don’t let it.
the troubles of the world don’t affect me anymore and i will only listen to the wings of my soul.