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May 31, 2016 at 1:56 pm #106107
JanusParticipantalso i’m starting to embrace myself more and be more happier and laid-back. here is the short poem for my angel mural:
Open your heart, free your soul, open your doors, spread your wings and fly upon the stars.
Forget the doubts and limitations, be the person you truly are.
Follow your dream
Don’t just follow the team
Follow your inner voice
To change the world, make the choice
To change yourself, to see the star within you
To yourself be true
May 31, 2016 at 4:10 pm #106116
AnonymousGuestDear shuirley:
When a friend is irritated or wants to spend time with you but you have other plans, well, you have to take care of yourself first. It will be a miserable life if your aim is to satisfy every person all the time- you won’t have time for your own life. So keep asserting yourself kindly with all.
About the mural, your quote, i wish I remembered. It was about love. it was beautiful. About your poem, may I propose an edit? Take what you want from my editing and ignore all of it, if you’d like: it is YOUR mural and I want it to be authentically yours. But editing one’s writing is not inauthentic. Writers do it all the time. So edit your own, with or without my suggestion:
Open your heart, free your soul, spread your wings and fly upon the stars.
Forget your doubts, be the person you truly are.
Follow Your Dream. Not the Team
Add your special star to the sky and let it shine bright.anita
May 31, 2016 at 6:01 pm #106122JanusParticipantthanks a lot anita;) i like that poem, it is simplistic and also has a lot of meaning. i think my special friend sees that i’m applying to college and he feels he will miss me so he wants to spend more time with me. today, while i was returning a few books at the library, i dropped a book and he helped me pick it up. he is excited for college as much as i am, but he thinks he will miss me. towards the end of the year, i have been running around, studying for finals, summer work and also college applications. i think he knows that i have started to appreciate myself more and he is happy for me, he told me “i know that i will miss you, but seeing how confident you’ve become is the best thing that has happened.” i realize there are many words left unspoken between us, but sometimes no words are enough to describe the depth of spiritual love and how much we’ve helped each other. he also said “regardless of whatever negative criticism you think about yourself, i don’t care about them because there not part of the special person you are.” i was going to revise my college draft today, but i found that i rather just meditate and enjoy the feeling of love that went through me and wishing i could have done more than just a hug and a smile.
May 31, 2016 at 7:25 pm #106124AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
I like all your poems. Your special friend will miss you but you will keep in touch, won’t you? I like how he encourages you and loves you unconditionally- this is what you need. You have been loving to each other. Maybe those unspoken words will be spoken some day and I will read about them in post 3,000 (ha ha..)
“negative criticism… not part of the special person you are.”- i very much agree!
anita
June 2, 2016 at 2:22 pm #106323JanusParticipanti have started a draft of my common app essay and i am feeling pretty confident about it. we only had twenty minutes in ap english to write it and the teacher took my draft eve though i wanted to finish it. i have the basic outline for the essay down, but i’m a little irritated at my ap english teacher for not letting us finish it at home b/c i have good free time when i can concentrate instead of being in class with 30 people and noise. i think i will remember the essay though. andrew was quite entertaining during ap english and he also helped me with my essay. dave also proofread some parts. my friend jenna (lunch friend) who is a senior is great at giving advice at college and my lunch buddy steve is quite entertaining.
i love theoretical physics and quantum mechanics. i always disagree with the saying “Time goes by fast.” According to Einstein’s theory of space time, time such as clock is a linear quantity while the past, present and future are considered dynamic and fluid dimensions in the universe. Since it isn’t possible to revisit the past or go into the future, it is only possible to live in the present. Anyway, the dimensions of time, since earth travels at a constant velocity of 29.8 km/sec continue to be constant and we continue to live in the same spacial dimensions. Also I have often felt at times when you reach a spiritual knowing inside that there is no universal time since the universe is so vast (the reason we have the calendar and clock is to keep things organized and in a linear, measurable faction). when you feel truly alive and one with the world, you realize that you are part of the entire universe which stretches boundless, universal and timeless and you realize the true immortality of your spirit. Scientists have discovered that every organism has components of carbon, nitrogen and oxygen since these are all forms of energy and according to the law of conservation of energy, there is a chance that the spirit energy within your body leaves at the moment of passing b/c the body ends up weighing 6% less. In this way, I believe we are truly spiritual and timeless beings.
I think i might right a poem called “Immersed in Divine” or “Immortality”
June 2, 2016 at 3:58 pm #106325JanusParticipantI have another poem called “In the End” and it is about living your life, not being afraid of death and the spiritual person you truly are;) I will post it later.
“Immersed in Divine”
All thoughts fade away
All that I am, all that I ever was is perfection
Making myself whole
Letting go of all the things I need to be
Letting my true self surface
Immersed in Divine
Letting go of expectations, of the world
Immersed in the divine
A star of light and love arise, my eyes see perfection
All that I am, all that I ever was is a universal soul of love
Nothing else matters as all time fades away
There is only now
There is only me
Immersed in the divine
Letting my life run its course
Embracing my true essence
Where I’m going, who I am doesn’t matter
Immersed in divine
Touching my spirit, my soul
Letting go of fear, doubts and fragmentation
I am whole
I am a star
A spiritual being of power awakened and enlightened
Immersed in the divine
Nothing holds me back from experiencing the beauty of life
I have transcended this world
I have touched the spirit of heaven
Where there was a void of pain and insecurity, there lies unconditional love and joy
All that matters is the divine
As I return to the heavens
I am whole
I am free
I’m not afraid of the end
I know I’ll be going home
I am good enough
I know the place i belong
I have stripped away all the values of the world, allowing myself to simply just be
In a state of Being, of Oneness
Immersed in divine
June 2, 2016 at 5:19 pm #106329JanusParticipantalso, i successfully calculated the barometric pressure (wind pressure) and humidity missed by 11%, it was 91%, but I said 80%, however I was right in calculating the wind pressure and saying that it would rain w/o checking the weather channel.
June 2, 2016 at 6:15 pm #106330AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
I read your post and will keep the poem to read tomorrow morning. There are a lot of parrallels between physics and spirituality as you expressed in the post above and before. There is probably no difference between science and spirituality.
Have a good Friday, will be back to my treast, your poem, Friday AM.
anita
June 3, 2016 at 9:17 am #106358AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
To me, Immdersed in the Divine is the most calming poem written by the Amazing Shirley. I like you repeating “immersed in the divine” again and again- it is soothing. And then I like these lines the most:
“I have transcended this world
I have touched the spirit of heaven” and:“I’m not afraid of the end
I know I’ll be going home.”Beautiful. Thank you!
anita
June 3, 2016 at 10:16 am #106361JanusParticipantthanks a lot anita;) i think i may start posting some of my poems on facebook as public, mostly i post them as private and i may start with the “All or Nothing” poem. Dave is helping me edit my poems and he really enjoys the idea of spreading positivity, andrew is still all scientific and says science and spirituality don’t really mix. but both of them are great at helping me, andrew is helping me with the artwork for the poems and dave is helping me edit them. I think I received at least a 96 on my pre-calc quiz today;) also kordell borrowed my pencil that was blessed by father david and when he sneezed i made a funny pun on how he was blessed by father david. also i think kordell did well on his pre-calc quiz b/c i let him borrow that same pencil, at first he was nervous, but at the end of the quiz, he seemed more relax, i hope for the best for him. i ran a 3 mile run in 8 minutes today;) the stellar evolution presentation with my physics honors group has turned out great, we each have learned a lot about each other’s talents.
here is a poem I wrote for you anita;)
Beautiful as the Dawn
The red and gold streaks the sky
After a long night of darkness
The gold crown of sun awakening
Anita, you are as beautiful as the dawn
New beginnings and hopes arise with a new day
Walking among the silhouettes of the trees, watching the sun rise, I drink in the richness of life
You are the dawn, Anita
Helping me find new beginnings after darkness
The birds awaken, singing their tune
All life awakens to this new day
You are like the bird at dawn calling forth the world to awake
A new youthness onstarts a new day
You, Anita are as beautiful as the dawn
When the night seems like a cloudy haze and my mind slumbers in darkness
As the dawn comes upon this world, I am awakened with a sense of purpose
In the silence if the mornings, my inner voice speaks
As the sun’s rays begin to dance upon the sky
As the golden rays strike upon me, the soul awakens
As beautiful as the dawn in her fiery colors illuminating the sky
Letting go of all limitations and expectations, I enjoy a perfect exhilaration
You are the colors of the dawn, Anita
The molten gold of the sun as it shines warmth and light upon this world
You help me see beyond the scars I hide in darkness
As the dawn breaks, I feel myself immersed in divine love
The sun’s rays caress me as I am lifted into the golden halo
All i see is light and the crimson red of compassion
You are the dawn, Anita helping me realize who I truly am
In the End
The last chapter of life
Afraid to close the book
To venture into the unknown
Will I find darkness or light?
In the end it doesn’t matter who you were in life, it matters the journey you took and the lessons you learned
We all wish we could rewrite our life, turn back the pages
When we should have enjoyed every moment while we were here
We should spend our time being happy with who we are and not working for something to make others happy
It’s okay to lose oneself
Sometimes when the illusions break we see who we truly are
It’s okay to experience fear and uncertainty
Dwelve into it, accept it and let it go
In the end, don’t focus on your life’s regrets
While on this Earth you had a purpose, you had many memories
Surround yourself with love, be happy with the experiences and the things you’ve learned
The experiences have helped you become a better person
In the end, cherish your memories
Be grateful for the life you had, the lessons you learned
A lifetime of experiences is better than no adventure at all
Live your life to the fullest here, go for your dreams
And when your moment comes embrace the divine
You are a spiritual being
In the end, know you will go home
in the end, illusions dissolve and we see our true self
If we are all human and mortal, why don’t we all treat each other with kindness while in life?
If we are all the same, why don’t we join together and create a world of love?
Can we see beyond our differences, which don’t matter since we are all destined to the same path?
Embrace the divine in you and others
Live your life as a miracle
Embrace the unknown and change
Instead of thinking of a life you want to escape from, appreciate the simple things and imagine the life of your dreams
Build your castles in the sky
Create the stairs to your dreams
Live your life with no limits
Live your life as the divine being you are
And when the end comes be not afraid because you have truly lived
For one who has truly lived, the end is only just a beginning
Just like a flower that withers in the winter and blossoms back in the spring
Such is the cycle of life
When one door closes another opens
So don’t worry when your story ends
Too much of our time on Earth is spent in distress that we miss the opportunities in life
If a flower can wilt and be reborn again, so can we
We are all part of nature
As we pass our physical body withers much like the flower, yet our spirit is still there awaiting to arise
The memories of us and the stories we have never fade
Like the flower that arises again, more beautiful nourished by the decay, so can we be reborn
If you are energy and your roots were dust, then to dust you return
We were made from star dust, each of us a star of beauty and then we rose to animal (many scientists believe human origin originated from the gorilla) and then became a man
When we pass, we become part of the soil dust for grass to grow becoming a plant and when an animal eats us, we become an animal and the cycle continues
So you see you died as a star (Big Bang) and rose to an animal, you were an animal and rose to a man, you were a man and rose to a plant, why should you fear death?
When were you less by dying?
Embrace your true essence, don’t let others tell you who you are
In the end, it doesn’t matter
In the end, you discover your true self
In the end, you are home, back to the place where you belong in divine love
June 3, 2016 at 6:40 pm #106426AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
Dave helps you edit poems, Andrew doesn’t believe that science and spirituality mix (and doesn’t like your mural angel, but I hope he can live with it, and Kordel was blessed (pun).
I am speechless.. I am in your Beautiful as the Dawn. I didn’t realize it until I saw my name in your poem… These are a few of the lines I like the best:
“You are the dawn, Anita
Helping me find new beginnings after darkness
The birds awaken, singing their tune
All life awakens to this new day
You are like the bird at dawn calling forth the world to awake
…You help me see beyond the scars I hide in darkness
…You are the dawn, Anita helping me realize who I truly am.”I am eternally grateful, Shirley, for this poem (just printed it). Dawn is my favorite time of the day and I literally awaken each day at dawn, to the sounds of birds. This poem means a lot to me. I am humbled and touched, thank you so very much. Your poem will be first on my mind tomorrow morning, at the break of dawn.
I will read In the End tomorrow morning. I am still filled with your first poem (sigh)
anita
June 4, 2016 at 5:50 am #106472AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
I woke up to
“The birds awaken, singing their tune
All life awakens to this new day”this very morning, Saturday, and of course, I thought of your beautiful poem Beautiful as the Dawn.
I just read In the End, lovely. When I read:
“In the end, know you will go home
in the end, illusions dissolve and we see our true self.”
I felt comfort, comfort in the words go(ing) home. Finally, I thought, total calm, rest, no more struggle. Nothing but peace. The more I free myself in this life of illusions (delusions, false beliefs, incorrect/ distorted thinking), the more in peace I am in this life. Seeing my true self, as is, is something I am going to do more, this very day, motivated anew by your poem.Thank you for your poems, Shirley. My goodness, you are indeed, the amazing Shirley the Poet and so much more. Your true self is fascinating and keeps amazing me!
anita
June 4, 2016 at 12:50 pm #106502JanusParticipantthanks a lot anita;) i realize i love knowledge, but sometimes my sense of spirituality tends to clash with my knowledge. i would love to learn more about radios and computers, but somehow my sense of spirituality often makes me doubt myself at times. there are some people who say i have my head in the clouds b/c i like to write poetry. i really enjoy learning about nuclear energy, solar power lots of things science related. however i would like to know more about environmental and field sciences as well as applied sciences such as mechanics and electricity magnetism. i have courses for them and i feel like i have learned lots about science and yet i still feel like an “average joe.” sometimes i wish i could be more like andrew and dave who seem to have all the answers and everyone looks up to them.
June 4, 2016 at 3:04 pm #106511AnonymousGuestDear Shirley:
No way Dave and Andrew have all the answers! You can’t excel at everything and you do have a variety of interests. Remember to not compare yourself. And you are not an “average Joe”- you are the Amazing Shirley, that’s who you are!
anita
June 4, 2016 at 4:07 pm #106514JanusParticipanti have often heard other teachers compare their students to dave and andrew and how studious they are. for every accomplishment i make, dave and andrew always seem 5 steps ahead. dave is quite nice at helping others to do well, while andrew whenever the competitive field gets almost level, he will get really competitive and will sprint another 5 paces ahead in his knowledge. i am starting to learn how to analyze things and also think logically and andrew already knows how to apply his thinking to experimenting with an electronic device when I’m working on making one. my angel mural has gotten a lot of positive feedback and since andrew is in the art club and i’m doing this for community service, he has gotten more competitive. even though my gpa is higher than his, i feel like he has more world knowledge.
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