thanks anita;) cool that it is also the uprising of the warsaw ghetto against nazi germany;) i really believe in the power of thought b/c all spring break throughout to today i have been imagining myself as being confident and also becoming better at shot put and it works. i have become more accepting of myself and also really enjoy shot put with my teammates. like thoreau said “it doesn’t matter if you have castles in the sky, your work need not be lost,just build the foundations under them and have faith in the process of life”; i feel like that you can set your goals in your mindset and believe and work hard for them and lay the foundations, trusting that you will succeed, truly believing in your heart, you will find a way. so many people build dreams that they feel are impossible and they just drift through life. the important thing is to live your life and accept the circumstances you have now and make the best of them and make them work for you. i i may write a poem about dreams and goals and relate to stars. life is truly beautiful and there are so many healing opportunities out there. last night when i was stressed, i saw the light of green wings and angel raphael telling me to let myself go, just to not fight the stress, but just relax and delve into the void. it felt strange at first to delve into the stress, but i was able to see why i was stressed and recognize it, acknowledge it and let it go. people often lash out or fight their stress, but it just drains them of energy, the thing they should do is to delve into the stress, acknowledge it and let it go. it may help to acknowledge the stress as a color such as red for anger or blue for sadness and imagine (or physically) yourself take a colored pencil and you coloring the stress out, releasing it onto the paper. then crumple the paper up and throw it in the trash.

thanks anita, i hope you feel better;) science rocks;) the full moon is often the time to shed light on ourselves who we truly are, to accept our past and move on from it as according to the farmer’s almanac tomorrow’s moon will be called a Pink Moon. it is time to shed light into your inner self, to delve into who you truly are and be one with your surroundings, let go and accept any negative energies that hold you back. only you can bring those dark parts of you to the light by accepting them and releasing them. andrew is great, he and i often share the same thoughts on science and he often finishes my sentences. i am learning about wavelengths such as radio waves in physics honors and am having fun discussing it with andrew. he is the second half of my science knowledge and we work well together and learn lots from each other. here is the site on the pink moon:
http://www.iflscience.com/space/theres-going-be-mini-moon-thursday

hope you feel better and wishing you the best of luck;)

thanks a lot anita;) my history teacher said “We all must fail to improve, to see our weakness and grow, to make mistakes and learn are all things encountered on the road to success, yet we must still try our best in all aspects of life. Don’t be too hard on yourself if you fail because it makes you a better person in the long run and it makes life worthwhile because you learn how to become a better and stronger person. If you are like the tree that never takes a risk or fears failure, because that tree didn’t bend and you don’t, one day if something bad happens you won’t be able to cope and like the tree, you will break. So live your life and have fun, take risks and remember failing is part of a road to success.” she was telling me about how some people might not achieve all their dreams, but the most important thing is to keep trying and knowing that wherever you will go will be okay and you will be alright in life. if you never fail in life, you won’t ever learn anything and life is pointless, it is our imperfections that make us who we are, that teach us how to become better people. i had lots of fun with my track mates today and i have gotten better at discus (when i first started i had trouble holding it and throwing it), but now i can do figure-eight stretches and i can throw it 6.5 inches and i managed four good throws today, spinning it off my index finger. i have also been trying the glide for shot put and i have some of the motions down, but i still need practice in keeping my balance and momentum as i push outward and release the shot ball. the workouts have gotten shorter, but they are harder and go for longer sets, but i have also gotten stronger as well. my teammates have a great sense of humor and are fun to be around. one of the workout things that is hard is inverted rows where you lay on your back (on a bench) and you pull yourself up to the bench bar, 30 times. another hard work out is doing 3 dips for every pull-up on the grip bar. we still do squats with weights on an incline and my sense of balance has gotten better and it doesn’t bother me as much anymore. the squat shoulder press (where you cross your arms and squat while lifting a bench bar is hard (12,10,8,8,6). incline pushups are hard (30 of them), but i enjoy doing them, yet they are hard when you have to twist from side to side and hold your abs in to work your hips. charlie (a thrower) and also sebastian (physics honors class) has been helping me with the workouts, sebastian has also helped me in physics honors and charlie helps me in ap world history. both have a great sense of humor and are fun to work with. andrew and i are having lots of fun talking about sound waves and antimatter and what caused the big bang and i am learning lots.

it was really hot out today and some people were a bit irritated from the heat while we were at track practice, but that’s just typical. charlie and willie (a guy who plays football, but is now doing shot put for track) were competing and they were both making other teammates laugh. willie and charlie have great sportsmanship and often encourage the other teammates to do their best and their witty sense of humor makes people laugh. javi (also who plays football is also doing shot put) and he and i have a lot in common. he and i both enjoy the medical field, being out in nature and working out. he is interested in oncology (study of cancers and tumors) and so am i. he is quite interested in brain and heart tumors and hopes to help those with cancer. i want to be a medical researcher and research stem cells and molecular biology and help those with cancer as well. while i will be working as a scientist, he will be a doctor. javi also has a great sense of humor and is quite good at logical reasoning and he enjoys cooking as much as i do. he was in my cooking and sewing class and we would often have fun competing with each other who was better at using the sewing machine and who cooked the best recipes. dave is still quite entertaining and helps me study for physics honors and the sats. even though, he and andrew have teamed up and they are competing against me, dave and andrew both continue to to look out for me. my lunch buddy, steve is also helping me with performing operations of trigonometric functions adding, subtracting, etc. using trigonometric identity. even though i’m not the smartest or the most athletic and i don’t care much about fashion, i find myself getting along with guys quite well. i enjoy being myself and sometimes i’m just happy to have people who accept who i am and who share the same laid-back nature as i am developing. i find that i’m becoming less and less like my parents and more like my friends and that i am happy with myself.

thanks a lot anita;)i have realized meditation helps a lot b/c it helps me recall memories that i have in the back of my mind at times when i need them. such as when i had to find the nth term of a sequence, i experienced a moment of mental clarity and was able to think the formula was a_n= a_1+(n-1)d. the “_” symbol is a subscript. i also remembered about how to find polynomial degrees using a table. also i have become more attuned to my surroundings and it doesn’t matter if people are negative or trying to bring me down, i just ignore them and imagine myself in a warm bubble of light. meditation has also helped me think quicker and i am also on my way of learning how to heal myself, in fact i have had results show especially with my circulation. at times throughout the day, whenever i seem to stray from mental clarity, i remember to remind myself to connect my crown, open my heart and let the divine energy flow into me. we are all made of star stuff and have the ability to heal ourselves mind body and spirit and if we believe and connect to our divine selves from within, we are already halfway there. if we open ourselves up to divine love and healing and truly believe in our potential instead of spending our energy fighting life, if we accept and trust the path of life and just look around to the beauty around us, we would truly realize life as effortless and as a miracle. i truly am grateful to all of my friends for also helping me. i feel like they truly have helped me see the divine in the world and myself.