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May 18, 2026 at 8:21 pm #457999
anitaParticipantJust thinking-feeling this Monday Eve, whatever comes to mind and heart.
If you are reading this, you are welcome to join with whatever comes to your 🧠 and 💛.
Listening to Sade 🎶🎶🎶 with 🍷: “If I tell you, if I tell you how I feel, will you keep bringing the best in me… There’s a quiet storm…the sweetest taboo.”-
A quiet storm- didn’t know that kind of storm. The storms I knew were deafening loud. Lots of disturbing noise in- me that no one heard outside me.
I suppose I now know a quiet storm= simply being or becoming okay with being me.
Sade: “The kiss of life… “- The kiss of death is what I got from my mother. Sadly, for me and for her.
Sade: “Got to stick together… hang on to your love.. In heaven’s name, why do you play these games”-
Oh, if only we could be direct and simple- within ourselves and toward each other.
Sade: “It’s never as good as the first time”- tell it to those who never got to have it good the first time.
Enough for now.
🎶🎶🎶 Anita
May 19, 2026 at 1:26 pm #458027
RobertaParticipantHi
AnitaSorry that you Bogargt has wet your bed. I hope it was just a passing phase.
Sorry i have been out of loop, I dont know where the time goes.
My satellite dish fell onto the rook last night & the wind kept bouncing on the tiles above my bedroom in sounded like a giant doing a tap dance on the roof. This was the room I was going to put my friends in when they visit at the end of the week, so I had to spend most of today spring cleaning another room for them to use, gosh I have accumulated so much stuff, where is Maria Condo when you need her.
Anyway off to bed, hope you have a dry night
RobertaMay 19, 2026 at 4:49 pm #458034anitaParticipantHi Roberta 🌼
Thank you for checking in 🙂. Yes, I’m hoping it was just a little phase for Bogart — puppies do like to keep us on our toes. Slept in the cleaned (somewhat) and dried bed last night after 3 nights on the floor. It would have been a wonderful experience if it wasn’t for me finding- at 9 or 10 pm- my prescribed sleep aid pills spread on the bedroom floor, full of spit and the container chewed up.
It was an exhausting night!
Your night sounded exhausting as well, with the satellite dish and all that noise on the roof. I can imagine how stressful that must have been, especially with guests arriving soon. I need Marie Kondo myself, big time!
I hope you got a quiet, peaceful sleep by the time you’re reading this, and that everything settles down with the roof and your preparations. Wishing you a calm Wednesday🙂
Anita
May 23, 2026 at 11:12 pm #458125anitaParticipantJust thinking this Sat night:
I may be catastrophizing, but this may be the ending of these forums, simply because it’s deathly slow and getting even slower.
This, here, is a place where I’ve been at since May 2015, every day (including during the 6- months during 2023 when I deleted my account).
Seems like tiny buddha’s forums, like any other website forums, are dying because social media platforms have taken over. (and I am not a part of it).
So, in my personal life, the irl taproom experience 2017-April 2026 has ended, and so did the Winery (2021- Dec 2025), and now, I realize, the tiny buddha forums I was SO involved with 2015-2026 are dying as well.
Anita
May 24, 2026 at 8:37 pm #458136anitaParticipantJust thinking this Sunday Eve, exactly 2 weeks since I started thinking in this thread on a Sun Eve:
Because it’s been so very sssslow, ssslow, sssssslow here, in the forums- I’ve been looking at old threads and learning.
I have been learning how often my trauma was triggerred when reading posts by people who either resembled my mother in some ways (volatile, angry, etc.) or had people in their lives who resembled my mother in some way (didn’t have to be by a lot)-
And my replies were corrective, directive, and fiercely protective of whomever the person I projected myself into was (the perceived victim of the person I projected my mother into)
I was not an objective reader and responder- not when triggerred.
More this Sun Eve or on another Eve.
🌙🌿✨️ Anita
May 26, 2026 at 3:01 pm #458169
AlessaParticipantDear Anita
Oh no! Peeing on the bed and chewing medication bottles… Bogart is having way too much fun. Is he okay after the medication bottle incident? How did it happen? Did he pee on the bed when you went out? 🤍
If it helps, I had a cat who would poop on my pillow when she was mad at me or ill. 😂
I’m sorry to hear you no longer visit the tap room. Do you want to talk about it? I hope that you find a new place to socialise soon. 🤍
I don’t know if this would be something you’re interested in, but you can get waterproof mattress protectors. Hopefully he won’t do it again. You did the right thing getting the enzyme cleaning solution! 🤍
It seems like you’re uncomfortable with the forum being slower? I think things will be okay. They just have their ups and downs.
Sorry I’ve been quiet, my studying has finally slowed down again thank goodness. And a stressful period is over. July or November it looks like for my son starting nursery. He has a back up nursery I’m visiting for the first time tomorrow. 🤍
May 26, 2026 at 4:13 pm #458173anitaParticipantDear Alessa:
There’s still a smile on my face since I saw that you posted 🙂. I will write more in a couple of hours, but for now, seems like Bogart spit all the pills because he showed no symptoms. And I’ve been swallowing a spitful pills every night. Now pills are on a top shelf.
💛 ( I lost the emoji function on the phone, so emojis don’t just show up, so can’t get a white or blue heart, only what’s been saved.. I am so low tech😔 Anita
May 26, 2026 at 6:46 pm #458174anitaParticipantHi again, Dear Alessa:
What happened was that my 2 pill bottles where on the dresser by the bed. It never crossed my mind that he’d chew on any. Now that I had the scary after- visual, I am placing them on an upper shelf.
As far as peeing on the bed- I wasn’t out when he did it the first time (a scary visual, a mini traumatic event because for days I kept “hearing” him pee when he wasn’t). I placed some clothing under him as he peed and absorbed most of it. But then, hours later, he peed a second time when I was not watching him (I forgot to close the bedroom door).
He regularly slept on the bed but would also jump on the bed during the day, anytime he wanted, so I figure that when he peed on the bed the 1st time, it wasn’t different for him than the half dozen of times that he peed on the carpet. And the 2nd time- it happened because he smelled the 1st time.
I considered a waterproof water protector but ended up rubbing the enzyme cleaner on it and letting it dry for 3 days and night, and then I placed a wool blanket on the mattress under the first of the (washed) sheets and had Bogart sleep on the bed every night since, but I close the bedroom door during the day, so for him the bed is a place to sleep only.
The taproom permanently closed a month and a half ago and no substitution found. For one, the taproom allowed dogs and most other places in the whole county and beyond don’t allow dogs 😔
I figured you were very busy. I’m glad to read that it’s quieter for you now, and that your son will be attending a nursery, hopefully in July.
You had a cat that pooped on your pillow, for crying out loud. Better not make a cat angry 🤬
Yes, the forums have been very, very slow for a long time, but I’ve been using my tiny buddha time going to old threads and learning from past exchanges with people.
I am glad you responded to other members as well and hope to read back from them.
I don’t think I’m as sensitive as I was to red hearts emojis, but regardless, I still appreciate you using white and blue hearts instead of red- simply because it was/ is- an act of consideration, of kindness, of grace. It may seem to some as a small act, but to me, it’s big 🙏🙏🙏
🌿🌙🌿 Anita
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