Hey 👋 Confused:

I am sorry that you’re feeling more numb than ever today, dysphoria and like a burden 😔

One of the questions you asked was “Why now?”- I think that you answered it previously, didn’t you? You said that she’s (I am paraphrasing) the best thing that happened to you, so kind, so attentive, so wonderful, the best girlfriend (although LD) you ever had, and that right before Nov the two of you talked about making a life together, moving to her country, living with her irl.

So, all that 1st time in a lifetime was a sort of shock to your system?

✨️ Anita