Hey anita

I know but before november i would also feel the need to pull them in even closer (fawning?)

So everyone says but it’s really very hard to grasp. I mean, how can we be so intelligent and still face such issues?

I have ALL that copilot wrote to you down to a T. But i never thought i had the difficulty of connecting, i guess my “connections” were always surface level? I think i’ve had pretty much everything with my GF of this list..

Today tho, it was a very nice day, it was her nameday, we were chatting all day until late night, we laughed a lot, we were intimate and caring and i felt nice for the first time in a long while (not honeymoon phase-like, but something good nonetheless)
She told me about a manager of hers that he’s hitting on her in the past 3 days and that makes her anxious and “freeze”, when i heard about it my BPM rose and my legs got weak..I advised her to take some action and don’t accept such behaviours. She is so innocent that takes everything as “joke” or “courtesy” and feels bad when i tell her otherwise, but she’s starting to get it, that most men only want one thing..
It felt better than the past months but my mind would still say “so, why aren’t u feeling ecstatic to videocall her, see her and stuff”, or “what if u get sexual and then u lose interest because u won this ‘prize’?” even tho i know i’m not such a person but my mind keeps attacking me lol.