Hi Louise, I read your post and I know *EXACTLY* what you’re going through. Im in the same position right now. I’ll just give you a little background: my boyfriend was Lynnrd Skynnrds nephew and he thought he was God’s gift to the earth, women etc, very arrogant, super good looking and just really berated me every chance he got, cheated on me constantly, FORCED me to shave my head all the time and was just really mean. But then on the flip side he was so adorable, sweet, fun & charming. That’s what I always remember but I have to FORCE MYSELF to remember how he hit me, shaved my head, cheated on me, called me ugly and fat, etc. It’s like I have a block and can’t remember those times. I have to make myself though because I feel a sort of freedom since I left him 4 weeks ago.  He literally had a new girlfriend within 2 days. So that shows how much he actually cared, hasn’t texted me, called me, nothing. GAME OVER.  Time for us to move on. It’s hard and I try to think positive and interrupt my thoughts when I think of him because it’s useless because I am NEVER going back, so what’s the point in wallowing and thinking about him. I’ve cried enough.

There’ s a time to open doors and a time to shut them. Not everybody is suppose to be in our lives forever. We have to know when it’s time to move on and I think you and I both know, it’s over.

Im sorry you’re going through this right now, but stay strong. Don’t give in. I know I am NOT.

This too shall pass and we’ll be better people for it and smile back on this one day!

muuuwah! Vox

Who would it be better for then? We wouldn’t exist nor know of the implication of our non existence.

Also I don’t think each and everything has a designated purpose, a lot of times, somethings just “are”. We can define our own purpose….or not .

But to answer the question I don’t think it’s better without us, we could go super deep into that and find a world without our existence and problems would still creep up. It wouldn’t be perfect, and even if it was perfect for who?

For real, this was an excellent post. I do this a lot and don’t make decisions enough and then become stagnate. Lately I’ve been making decisions and making moves and things are happening and I don’t live in so much fear anymore. It’s incredible. Thanks for sharing! Vox

Hi Dreaming, I know how you feel, my best friend of 20 years has recently been diagnosed as schizophrenic and it was becoming more and more apparent. It was really difficult to deal with because after being extremely paranoid at her husband also my best friend, she became paranoid of her children, me and my family; saying varying sorts of just insane things.  It was very hurtful but I have to understand she’s mentally ill and I truly feel like I’ve lost someone. It’s difficult to reason with someone that has an issue like this, rational thinking or logic is just out the window. Vox_Populi