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  • in reply to: Living with the pain for nearly 40 years #385177
    Gary
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    Looking back at events throughout the years , I believe she just got to a place while very young , that made her believe she was missing something in life. Yes , she did become very irresponsible and extremely undependable. Yes , she did get involved in a long term affair long before I fell into one. There are no excuses , no justification for infidelity , none. There are choices. We make bad choices. That’s just being human. But we can own our mistakes and express genuine remorse and seek forgiveness.

    Does a soldier need to apologize to his wife for serving his country on an extended tour of duty? Does a fireman have to apologize for their absence while on there job. No , it was all a matter of insecurity. I was there , all she had to do was open up and talk about it. I recommended counseling , therapy , whatever it took …  she was just not interested. She became so selfish she became unrecognizable. I remember asking her at one point why she married me. One might expect an answer like “Because I loved you.”  That’s not what I got. I got a “What else was I suppose to do.” (She was pregnant with our first)

    A long while has past since my original post , and although I’ll never forget those days and events of long ago , I’m in a much better place now. I’ve been married to my present wife for 38 years and she has stood by my side through that period of severe depression. She knows the whole story. We’ve had our ups and downs but we never gave up and I am so very thankful that I found her those many years ago. If my ex and I had never divorced , I would never had met my current wife. So I thank her for that.

    As was said , people have choices ,  the choices you make will dictate the degree of your character.

    in reply to: Living with the pain for nearly 40 years #383706
    Gary
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    I’ve learned she has glioblastoma. I feel horrible for our adult kids. Her life , I’m sure , is nothing like she imagined it would be.

    And , no , I’m way beyond the anger. I got to indifference even before the divorce.

    in reply to: Broke up 6 weeks ago and can't let go #320463
    Gary
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    Kiky , at the risk of sounding coarse , I’d like you to google corey wayne. He’s a life skills coach and it doesn’t cost anything but time. Heaps of sound advice that works.

    in reply to: Need advice asap #320461
    Gary
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    Go no contact , positively. Divorce is ugly and painful , but your mission now is to work on you. Clear your head , you don’t need a relationship to find and heal yourself , it will only complicate matters. You are awesome . You are worthy. Don’t be insecure. Many people fall into this trap and rebound to a mistake. Take your time , it will come.

    in reply to: Living with the pain for nearly 40 years #320459
    Gary
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    I have read and researched many forums and articles regarding my past situation and it tends to point to a personality disorder. There is really no other rational explanation. I married a narcissistic sociopath.

    in reply to: My case is weird,but I really need help. #225277
    Gary
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    Might I suggest a DNA test from , say , ancestory or some other testing agent. I found out and was contacted by a man who turned out to be my 1st cousin. He was given up for adoption when he was 3 days old.

    in reply to: Living with the pain for nearly 40 years #225019
    Gary
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    I’ve been beating myself up over this , but I do realize it doesn’t matter anymore , she never wanted to give it a second chance , she separated completely , she had total disregard for my pain , and now , I know  , she is wallowing in self pity and regret. Not meaning to be cruel , but she just wanted to play the whore and I just couldn’t deal with it. So if she ever reads this , and she’ll know exactly who this is , I’m sorry , but I’m happier now , I got extremely lucky finding a woman that does care and voluntarily took on all my psychological baggage to love me. Some people learn from their mistakes , I did. Others refuse to place any blame on themselves and go though their entire lives in denial. Sorry for them , they made those choices themselves . They put themselves in that position.

    in reply to: Living with the pain for nearly 40 years #224649
    Gary
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    thanks….maybe your right …it just periodically hurts to this day.

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