Hey anita

I read your posts with copilot’s words and i can relate, i think he’s right. I could even relate with Paulien Timmer’s most videos about FA..But it all feels so real, like i truly don’t want her, or i am bored. For example now we text, how our day went, some other info here and there and it feels “dull” and not interesting. But on the other hand, every relationship (especially LDR) gets to this point eventually. The new and shiny energy fades, but my mind didnt go smoothly in this transition, damn. But i can’t consciously feel/recognize what copilot and others say, even if they all say the same thing, fear.

Then there is the low mood-problem in general, i can’t find any joy or motive in my life since November, so it’s normal to not feel it with her either. I feel empty and drained, my spark is gone. Does this have to do with the previous things? I wonder