Hey anita

Emojis are nice and fun especially if u use them to give meanings in texts haha

Thank you anita, likewise 🙂

I would say it might be more numb? Haha i like this phrase, the bee’s knees!

Meh, i wouldn’t say i feel better. Yesterday i was out with friends and within an hour i wanted to go back to my house and stay there. I can’t connect with anyone, not even my friends. It’s like i watch them all laughing, having fun, conversating and i’m only able to nod or say a few words here and there. Ofc my mind is constantly fixed on her.

Yeah why aren’t the feelings here? I remember before this happened i would feel like a kid going home to play with his favorite toy when i was talking to her, i would shower and jump in bed to have endless convos with her, would laugh all night till morning in calls… I feel such void in my chest thinking of those times, so melancholic..

Today she posted a photo of herself on socials and when i saw it my stomach kinda dropped idk why, then i saw the first like was from her ex (they are still following each other on socials) and i got irritated. My mind instantly went “why is she posting this? does she want attention? Now her ex might reach out to her and tell her that he still likes her” and other similar things and i would get kinda angry/upset, like looking for a reason to leave.