Hey anita

U think? I actually feel very not-myself in the past 7 months since that day.. Feels like my normal self is resting/hiding somewhere i dont know.. Thats nice of you thank you 🙂

I find your knowledge and replies fun and profound too 🙂

Haha funny thing is, she told me the other week that she’s more “bound” with the current me, rather than the one i’m claiming i was before November, even tho sometimes she’s missing how spontaneous and affectionate/caring i was towards her, i still am but not to that degree, i wish i was..

Yeah i read about it, how it affects dopamine and reward system, basically jumpstarts them or something. Idk if i should consider that. The psychiatrist had told me that it’s because of my dopamine being too high i get all those thoughts/ruminations/obsessions. But in the last days i think i feel a bit better overall, definitely not the in love feelings like before but calmer and more accepting. Maybe those feelings will not come back again sadly and i have to stay and work on it for the first time in my life.

Haha just use whatever emoji u got saved there.