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  • January 15, 2020 at 8:28 am #333595
    Peggy
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    Hello LK,

    It really sounds as if this situation has blown up because anger was involved.  It must have hurt your friend when you said you wanted to disappear because you had stopped valuing the friendship.  This is rejection.  He then took action which hurt you and then you took further action which hurt him.  As your communication links have been blocked it is difficult for you both to resurrect this friendship.  I don’t know if you have any opportunities to socialize with him in a group setting but I really feel that you need to find a way to apologize for your behaviour.  If this isn’t possible perhaps you could post a card through his door which simply says “Sorry”.  You will then have taken responsibility for the part you played in the argument.  Keep it simple.

    The reason that this is weighing on you is because you are giving “the problem” your focus.  If you aim at looking for a solution, you may find yourself becoming lighter again.  It may be that you have to let this friendship go and give more attention to the friends that you do still have.  You could learn from this incident and hold back from messaging people when you are angry.

    You might also ask yourself whether it is true that you always make assumptions and whether or not you need to examine your viewpoint on life.  Are his criticisms valid?  Are these areas that you would want to change?

    First and foremost, give yourself the care that you so desire by reminding yourself that you are loved and indulge yourself with your favourite treats.

    I hope this helps.

    Peggy

    January 15, 2020 at 10:26 am #333615
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear LK:

    “I am currently working on not letting external circumstances affect how I feel, but I am not there yet”- no human is ever there, being able to not be affected by negative external circumstances. We are inherently born to be affected by and respond to external circumstances all through our waking hours.

    To be less reactive to external circumstances, to not react impulsively and destructively to external circumstances, that is doable and possible.

    New Years Day, you were angry at your friend because he didn’t say or do something that you wanted/ expected him to do. Next you texted him that you want to  disappear from the friendship, so to create an alarm in him. You succeeded and he indeed was alarmed, messaging you questions, asking you to explain what you meant and pictures of yourself so to see that you are okay. You ignored his texts for a while, as his alarm increased and finally you talked to him. Next he blocked you, later you messaged him on WhatsApp, apologized and blocked him there, then unblocked him, then he blocked you.

    “Although I told him I wanted to disappear .. in my heart I was hoping for a dialogue/ conversation between us and not a complete and utter blowup… I don’t understand how this got so out of control to the point where he felt like he needed to block me”-

    – In your heart you were hoping for an honest dialogue, an honest conversation, correct? In your heart you did, but in practice you didn’t do your part in having an honest dialogue because you started the conversation that day with a threat, that you will disappear, leaving him to fill in the blanks, then you waited for him to get more alarmed, wondering why you are not responding. This didn’t create an honest dialogue- it was a dishonest manipulation on your part.

    To have an honest conversation, you should have talked to him on the phone or in person (instead of texting), you should have told him specifically what you were unhappy with, or asked him what he meant when he said this or didn’t say that (whatever your anger was about). No threats, no accusations, just a conversation.

    You wrote: “him and I had suffered from clashes in the past”, so New Year Day was not the first clash. Well, no wonder he blocked you. I don’t know about what he did wrong, but I can see what you did wrong.

    Back to my first point: you can’t not care about what happens around you,  but you can change dysfunctional behaviors so to increase the chances that good things happen around you. If you started with an honest dialogue with him that day, there was a greater chance that you and him would be having a healthy friendship at this point, or soon.

    anita

    January 15, 2020 at 12:02 pm #333657
    LK
    Participant

    Thank you Peggy and Anita for your beautiful insight. *hugs*

    I think I’m going to have to let this one go and focus on all the good areas of my life. I will take what I can learn from it, but I can’t change what I did/said and I really have no way to reach this friend. We don’t have the same social circle, live in different cities, and he might truly be sincere about never wanting to hear from me again. If he told me that, I feel as if I have no choice but to believe him. I figure he is the one who has me blocked and if he ever wants to talk it out, he can unblock me. I don’t want to beat myself up over it any more because the feeling is awful.

     

    January 15, 2020 at 12:27 pm #333665
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear LK:

    You are welcome.

    “I will take what I can learn from it.. I don’t want to beat myself up over it”-

    – yes,  learn all you can from what happened and don’t beat yourself up. There is benefit for the former and no benefit at all to the latter.

    anita

    January 15, 2020 at 1:17 pm #333689
    Inky
    Participant

    Hi LK,

    Timing is so important. Also how you do things.

    Think of it this way. People view New Years Day as a time for new beginnings. A clean slate. So imagine his surprise when he got a text saying, “I want to disappear from this friendship because our conversations are not meaningful.”

    He blocked you because for all he knows your New Years Resolution was to dump friendships that no longer serve you. How terrible! For all you know his resolution was to work on his friendships.

    No wonder he blocked you! Then you communicate to him on WhatsApp and you block him before he blocks you.

    Better to say these things in person or people will definitely take things the wrong way.

    Best,

    Inky

    January 16, 2020 at 5:26 am #333831
    LK
    Participant

    Inky,

    You are so right. It was terrible timing and things really got out of hand. Since this is where I am now, I wonder if I should delete my friend’s number? It is disheartening to see his name in my phone and also see that I am blocked on Whataspp.

    January 16, 2020 at 5:32 am #333835
    LK
    Participant

    Also,

    Any advice and tips on how to forgive myself for ruining the friendship?

    *hugs*

    January 16, 2020 at 9:26 am #333857
    Inky
    Participant

    Hi Again,

    If you delete his number he can always call you, right? Maybe write it down and throw it in a drawer just in case.

    This sounds crazy, but getting a reading or doing a workshop at a metaphysical center can help “clear” any unforgiveness you have for yourself.

    Also, the fact that you told him that you essentially thought he was surface-y in the friendship MIGHT have been the wake up call he needed. Even if it was on New Years.

    Inky

    January 16, 2020 at 10:39 am #333877
    LK
    Participant

    Hi Inky,

    Yes, if I delete his number, he can always call me. I don’t have him blocked or anything.

    It’s funny that you mention a metaphysical workshop because I had the same thought myself! It’s also funny because even though all kinds of things were said and the blowup was pretty bad, I feel that we will somehow reconnect. There is so much going on right now-I have intensified my spiritual journey this year and I think this is all just a part of it! When my friend told me I make too many assumptions, I really took a step back and am currently examining some of his criticisms. Although he is/was surface-y, I had a strong feeling that if the friendship was conducted differently, we could help each other grow so much. I guess, despite the friendship going over the cliff, it is still helping me so much, and I do hope that he takes a step back and look at his own actions as well. Maybe we won’t be on our spiritual journeys together, but if somehow we were both a good catalyst for them, then what more can really be asked for.

    Thank you so much for taking time out to comment on my post. It truly means so much to me. 🙂 🙂 🙂

    January 16, 2020 at 11:00 am #333883
    Peggy
    Participant

    Hi LK,

    Friendships come and go.  They are transient.  They are subject to circumstance and change.  Your last post to Inky suggests that you have come to recognize this and, even though you may have had a parting of the ways, you can take nurture from this experience and friendship that at first glance seemed so negative.

    I hope that you continue to grow with spiritual awareness and meet lots of like minded people who will encourage you in your pursuits.

    Happy New Year.

    Peggy

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