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  • July 14, 2019 at 7:55 am #303259
    Mark
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    Grace,

    Could you tell me how old you two were when you first got together and how old you two are now?

    You mentioned both coming from broken families. In my experience this is where the healing starts from.  Have you gotten any counseling or therapy? I strongly recommend that in order to have any kind of healthy relationship in your life.

    I never trust anyone on their word when they say that they have changed.  I look to see what actual work they have done.

    You ask how you can get over this guy. Start by building a life for yourself, by yourself. Do you have a circle of friends? Do you have a social life? Do you have hobbies or passions you pursue? That is how you start getting on without someone.

    Mark

     

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    July 14, 2019 at 8:10 am #303263
    Grace
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    When we first got together, I was 14 and he was 13. I am now 19, and he is 17.

    July 14, 2019 at 9:08 am #303273
    Mark
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    Grace,

    What do you think about what I said?

    Mark

    July 14, 2019 at 1:44 pm #303275
    Peggy
    Participant

    Hi Grace,

    I just want to pick up on a couple of points.

    Your boyfriend, between the ages of 13 and 17, has attempted suicide twice.  This is very, very sad.  This is not your fault in any way whatsoever.  When you think that he didn’t want to live ‘for you’ his attempted suicide makes it personal to you.  This is not the case.  He didn’t want to live for anyone, not even himself.

    He has cheated on you several times.  The man you have described as perfect and your best friend has done this to you and has then tried to dump the blame on to you:  ‘we were fighting’ which you know is a lie.

    You have tried several times to be together and it has not worked.  Yet still you want him back.  You haven’t had enough of his lies, his cheating, the pain of breaking up.  You just want to be back with him so that you can feel “at home”,  so that you can belong.  You don’t feel done and you don’t want to be done forever.

    Until you change this mindset, you will keep going back.  Until you can say that you have had enough of his lies, his cheating and the pain of breaking up, you will keep going back.  Until you can say that you will no longer accept the blame, you will keep going back.  Until you can say that you do not belong with this imperfect man, you will keep going back.  Until you can say that “home” with him is not a safe place to be, you will keep going back.  Until you can say that you are done with him forever, you will keep going back. 

    Begin by changing your mindset regarding this person and as regards yourself perhaps you’d like to bear in mind that “if you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always got”.

    I hope you find the strength to move on.

    Best Wishes

    Peggy

     

     

     

     

    July 14, 2019 at 4:36 pm #303281
    Grace
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    Mark,

    I think it was very helpful that you think I should seek out a therapist or counselor, I think that would benefit me in many ways. In regards to what you said about building a life, I have no issue building a life for me without him, but in the end I always end up wishing it was a life we shared together. I want him to want to be in it as well, but as a better man. I do find myself enjoying my time alone more than with anyone, but in the back of my mind is always him and I have a hard time letting go. I do not know how to let go.

    Thank you,

    Grace

    July 14, 2019 at 4:43 pm #303283
    Mark
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    Grace,

    Letting go is one step at a time.  A mindfulness practice will help.  That would entail being fully aware of the present moment, with your senses atune with what is around you at that moment along with noticing your physical body sensations.  Whenever you think of him and wish that you are with him, notice that desire and let it pass and go back to the present moment.  It’s a practice.  It’s not an instant magic bullet but it’s a good practice to do regardless.

    It is setting your intention to move on.  So focusing on building a life is about that life without him.  It’s about focusing on that rather than focusing on your wish of having a life with him.

    Mark

     

    July 15, 2019 at 1:15 pm #303459
    Anonymous
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    Dear Grace:

    You wrote, “Neither of us came from a complete family”. About your feeling of love for him you wrote, “I felt like I finally was home, like I could breathe again, like I  was complete… I wanna be home again”-

    – when we feel rejected and not part of a loving family of origin, it feels like being incomplete and not having a home, homeless and incomplete and sometimes it feels like not being able to breathe.

    That “crazy in love” feeling is that desire for a home-feeling with another person, and the feeling, at times, that  this desire has been satisfied. No better feeling.

    He repeatedly cheated on you, and you asked, “How could he do this to me? I gave him everything”-

    – unfortunately, when a child gets severely hurt in his home of origin, a later in life relationship, even in one’s second decade, does not fix this hurt, especially if he still lives with his parents, suffering the same rejection or aggression that he suffered early on.

    If the two of you were to make it together, he would have to live away from his parents, no longer exposed to  their rejection/ aggression, and same true for you. Then both of you will need to attend quality individual psychotherapy, some of the therapy will need to be couple therapy where a competent therapist teaches and guide the two of you how to communicate effectively and not mistreat each other in any way.

    anita

     

    July 15, 2019 at 1:20 pm #303465
    Anonymous
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