hello, i’ve been watching and reading all sort of advices about getting your ex back or whatever that has the same topic as this. I’ve given myself a thought before sending you this and I hope I can get some answers.. Whether its good or bad, I’m ready to accept it.

Moving onto my problem. We’ve been in a LDR for 2 years.At first we were very happy, i can express anything, my worries my problem etc and he always be there to comfort me and discuss things together. We met in an online game. As our relationship grows, we take things slowly from chatting to call then to video call. But as days goes on, he’s getting busy and sometimes he rejected me if i wanna call him saying he’s tired. I kinda understood so I never call him ever since that and only wait for him to call me whenever he’s free from works.

i know part of our relationship problem was my fault too ’cause i constantly overthinking things but not to the point of thinking he’s cheating on me. I really trust this man wholeheartedly. I’ve limit my social and focused only him ’cause he once said he feel jealous when other guys chatting with me in game. But as time goes on, I find myself feeling neglected whenever he chatted with others. I also discovered that I’ve been having depression ’cause I hurt myself whenever I feel frustrated(but i stopped doing this). I tried to talk with him about my depression, but most of the time he cut me off before I could even finish talking. I know he’s comforting me with his own way by struck me with the truth.

This depression led us to our first breakup. It was mutual breakup. I told him to block me so I couldnt reach him whenever I feel regret. I thought I can be strong but turned out I wasnt, so I messaged him back in game(since he cant block mail) two days after the break up. After some talks, we got back together in December last year. We were happy but we had into big fight again, then he blocked me. We still can talk in game using mail, he said he need some space so I did. We back on track again on Christmas until we had a big fight again last month(march). He blocked me again and still hasnt unblock me until now.

He did said he’ll be busy on april because his cousin will visit him. So I tried to endure this blocking phase again by just thinking he’s busy. But I don’t know if he would unblock me again. I have 2 fb accounts, he fully blocked my other fb but only blocked messagging on the one im using right now. We have other messagging app too(discord) but he didnt block me there. I tried sending him message on our 3rd week of no contact but no respond. I deleted the message i sent because i dont wanna look stupid. Right now I don’t know what our status are ’cause he didnt clear up things before ghosting me. I’m also confused too whether I should wait or not.

So my question, after reading this message, what do you think? In my situation right now, will he contact me back?

Thank you in advance.