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December 24, 2015 at 6:03 pm #90560whoParticipant
This is about me, and how I feel..
Life!
I was thinking, how can I take or receive advice from people who are just as bad off as I am??? meaning we can tell and give advice to others on how to grow, help, live, etc. but can’t maintain our own lives!Life is always going to throw things at me no matter what, good or bad. Because without any difference, I feel that we wouldn’t know the difference!
I’ve been so caught up in wondering about this and that, “Life” etc. Loosing more of who I am… Feeling like the real meaning of life, is pushing further and further away, because I’m not living it!
To the point of nothing seems real to me anymore…nothing! not people, emotions, God, Gods, Or no God, spirit guides, aliens, big bang theory, etc. Just too much! shit! I mean how do you or people really know, what is, and what isn’t”???
As for me I’m over it! meaning that I just don’t give shit! I’m just moving on forward with my life!Speaking of self! my depression is all in my head, and I’m choosing to let go, and not be a slave to this anymore!
This isn’t just talk!!!
This is me being serious! and just saying fuck it! sorry for the cuss words, but I’m not going to edit how I feel!I’ve had a lot of bad that I put on myself! and a lot that I didn’t… But I still must live…till that very last breath!
And somehow fight for my right to exist here among others!.. Who may have different views, be from different backgrounds, colors, and have different energies, rich, or poor etc.Sometimes that’s all that I feel it is, to fight for your place here on earth! To see how bad that you do matter! and to NEVER STOP TRYING! ….
Fuck! what people think, by the end of the day it really doesn’t matter, because it’s all just their perception about you! So why care so much?
Time passess and we can never get time back!
As for me I have wasted a lot of my time blaming myself! and pointing the finger at others! When’s enough going to be enough? Only I can truly answer that question… So I did and I have…Enough is now..no more!I do have people who give a shit about me! and want me to be happy! I need to cherish! those moments with them, while creating my own. Because everyone has a final day and time. Just this week 3 people that I knew, are now dead!!! and I’m over here being self absorbed…wow” what gives me the right?
I’m going to jump off the cliff and soar! with what little wings that I do have. As I grow, my wings grow with me. Time for me to fight back!
And with that all said, you might not hear from me anymore or as much, on Tiny Buddha..peace !and Hope all finds their way in life!
And no this isn’t me talking about suicide! It’s about me getting my back my life!…and I will….!!!!!December 24, 2015 at 6:30 pm #90561AnonymousGuestDear who:
You wrote you want to vent. You didn’t ask for input or advice. In fact, you wrote: “how can I take or receive advice from people who are just as bad off as I am??”
I am very active on this site. Are you referring to me being “just as bad off as” you? What do you mean by “just as bad off” ? Again, are you referring to me? To who are you referring to, who?
If tiny buddha was a boat and you got on it, what you are doing now is drilling a hole in it and screaming: this boat sucks! it is sinking. No wonder you are sinking, who. This is no way to soar!
I can “hear” your rage, your anger. It has a valid message, this anger of yours. The valid message is NOT to sink the boat.
anita
December 24, 2015 at 6:32 pm #90562AnonymousGuestMore: I did not read your whole post, only the first few lines and the last few lines. I didn’t want to read more insults. So my reply is based only on a few lines.
December 24, 2015 at 7:04 pm #90563jockParticipantNot sure he’s blaming us though anita.
Just venting through frustration.
Tiny Buddha and Anita can’t solve all my problems. I don’t expect it or her to, either.
I’m just grateful for the support I get here.December 24, 2015 at 7:21 pm #90564whoParticipantyou are very very sensitive Anita, taking everything way too personal! And I’m okay with on how how you feel about my post! I find it funny though because it says venting! meaning just what it says… The truth is like it or not we all have issues, or we wouldn’t be here posting on tiny buddha! When I said how can I take advice from people that don’t have their lives together. I was including myself too!
Because I tend to do that often when around people.So who am I to do so, when my life! isn’t right? Thinking that maybe me and people, should apply in our lives what we speak. I should of know posting this too would be a big deal to you!!! insults no way of any means! When I was writing this! You have a good way of using words. If you would of continued on reading , then maybe you would understand where I’m coming from. Or maybe not..Please stop! starting shit! with me, my patients is growing thin..There is no reason for me to be mad or etc. with you or anyone on here! This is the second time, that you are doing this!!!
I honestly feel that if Jack would of said that I was in the wrong the first time! You would of followed and never posted on my threads again! But just because he was okay with it! You decided to act like you wur okay with it! Either way no one on here is attacking you!!!
My post is about (venting!) you take things too far! For example: If you didn’t understand my Post with the game!Or don’t like games!
Then all you had to do, was not post on it! Or ask me to just simplify the rules for better understanding!But instead you yes you! derailed it! by talking about everything!.And I feel that ,that’s not right! People post topics on here that they are serious about, and want others to stay on topic,or it becomes unclear. Even lost..I even posted back to you, because I don’t hold grudges, and respect the fact that you just don’t like my rules for the game. But I’m sure that they’re other people out there, who would of enjoyed it! If given a chance!
- This reply was modified 8 years, 10 months ago by who.
December 24, 2015 at 7:35 pm #90566whoParticipantNot everything is about you Anita!
I’m sorry to anyone who reads this!
It was never met to be a finger pointed at anyone!
I was just venting out my trapped feelings and thoughts! when I say things like you people or people, I’m not talking to anyone in particular! I just mean people including myself!I’m just getting off this website for good! Can’t post what I feel, because it gets turned around at me! And plus because I’m not here to battle nor argue with anyone. I’ve had enough of that in my life!
IF I had offended anyone who reads this, I am TRULY SORRY! THIS IS NOT WHAT I WAS TRYING TO DO!- This reply was modified 8 years, 10 months ago by who.
December 24, 2015 at 7:48 pm #90568jockParticipantNo dramas who.
I like to vent too. it’s healthy not to bottle up these things and I think the Internet is a good place to do it. As long as it doesn’t become personal and I don’t think your post was really.
Hang around.
But I can understand you not wanting to stay. A lot of people move on from Tiny Buddha. I think the lack of traffic is the main problem. Then a lack of regulars besides me, Anita, Inky, Saisha occasionally and a few others. It becomes claustrophobic I imagine.
But you’ll find problems on any forum on the Internet. Lots of imperfect people on imperfect forums. And some of them are moderators. No moderators here at least.December 24, 2015 at 9:00 pm #90569jockParticipantChristmas is the season for peace and good will.
Does that mean we are free to fight and hate for the rest of the year? 🙂December 25, 2015 at 6:37 am #90570InkyParticipantHi who,
I don’t know if you’re still around…
This thread shows that we are all solidly in our own realities based on our perceptions. But which one is real? Any of them? All of them?
This reminds me of the time my sister and I were in a Group. A couple years into it this woman cornered my sister. It was clear that she had been holding onto this particular grievance/”reality” for a while, because she was so upset. She screwed up her courage and finally asked, “I feel like we aren’t close. Have I done anything to upset you and how can I fix it?”
My sister looked at her blankly and replied, “I’m going through a divorce.”
Meaning, the woman wasn’t such a great friend if she didn’t realize a friggin’ divorce was going on, AND that my sister didn’t think of her, um, AT ALL! The real Reality? They weren’t that close! Of course, that confrontation made things even worse!!
Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! To a season where there’s nothing to vent about!! 🙂
Inky
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December 25, 2015 at 9:07 am #90572AnonymousGuestWho: you bite the hand that reaches out to help you. Again and again. I am taking my hand back from the position of reaching out to you. Don’t like to be bitten: and that is nothing personal, don’t like to be bitten by anyone, not only by you. You may post here on this thread, elsewhere on tiny buddha, that is up to you. What is up to me is that I will not respond to any post by you. Goodbye and Merry Christmas!
anitaDecember 25, 2015 at 11:30 am #90577PeppermintParticipantDear Who,
I wanted to answer to your original post.
To me it sounds as if your ‘venting’ actually lead to bold and wonderfully selfconfident statements, culminating in “I’m going to jump off the cliff and soar!”. Awesome! You go, who! What will be your next steps?As for your first sentences, the way I interpret it is that you are tired of people giving others advice when they seem to struggle themselfs. I agree that everyone who finds his way here is most probably struggling one way of another. But the thing is: we have all dealt with different things in life already. So someone seeking advice about e.g. a broken heart will likely find someone else here who has allready dealt with a similar situation. Some advice will be good, some bad, deciding that is up to the one asking for advice. But what is just as important, if not more, is that people can find empathy here for their problems. And for that, you don’t need the perfect advisor, just someone who is willing to listen. I can totally understand if this forum is not the right place for you right now, but I hope you will visit again whenever you like.
December 25, 2015 at 1:42 pm #90583jockParticipantI think Peppermint is right. We are not a perfect community here, giving perfect wisdom to those seeking it. We are all struggling on our journeys. No one knows all the answers and it is important for us to remember that. Just be glad for someone to take an interest in your problems and suggesting options to face and solve them.
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