Welcome Em.

No I never really faced such a dilemma.

I do know that I usually go into something that I know is good for but reluctant to do so when the pain gets to be too much (hit bottom).

I also know that that is not the best way of healing myself.  It is better to stick with therapy rather than do it in spurts and stops.

Good luck,
Mark

Hello Em.  Depression is tough but I’m glad you got an official diagnosis so you know the best treatments.  I’ve had clinical depression for the past 15 years which was triggered by a very traumatic event in my late 40’s.  Going on medication (SSRI) was a last resort, but it gave me my life back.  I was becoming less and less functional.  No energy or motivation, missing time at work, etc.  Then I had a serious depressive episode which was several weeks of hell.  Only going on medication pulled me out of it.  I’ve stayed on a low dose since then which has kept me stable.  For clinical depression, most experts will recommend a combination of medication and talk therapy.  Hope your treatment goes well for you.