Hi Nydia,

That is a nice meditation!

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And Welcome! Glad to have you! 🙂

Inky

Dear Nydia:

I like this writing, in form and content:

“the combination of years of unhealed emotional wounds, distrust in my own self, & (most importantly)misplaced faith has created an emotional pool where there is no gentle ebb and flow, only strong tides and massive waves. I feel as if I put a lasso around the moon of life and pulled it so close into my world that everything is out of balance. All the paths that I have been seeing are gone, I am blind. The brightness of the moon singed my eyes, and now I am stumbling around in the dark.

I suddenly feel the small light inside of me. Not a flame, but an ember.
I was so close…TOO close to just letting that ember fade away into the ever expanding darkness.
I KNOW that from something as tiny as an ember, one can create something as huge and amazing as a roaring fire. A fire which means survival…in ANY situation. As long as you are living, as long as you are breathing, you carry that ember in your soul.”

I was wondering: can you define “the war in you”- who are the parties at war? (I would like to attempt to answer the “who is winning” part of your title.

anita

Dear Nydia:

My internal war was between my true self and who I was taught that I was. My true, authentic self is winning.

I can very much relate to your experience of “years of unhealed emotional wounds, distrust in my own self, & (most importantly)misplaced faith”-

my misplaced faith was in the person who taught me who I was. That teaching was untrue.

Thank you for your thread.

anita

Dear Nydia:

You are welcome. It is very difficult to be authentic when living with the very person or people who taught you to not be authentic.

* You wrote in your original post: “I KNOW that from something as tiny as an ember, one can create something as huge and amazing as a roaring fire”- I like this image very much.

anita

Dear Nydia:

You are welcome. I hope you do live away from where your inauthenticity and confusion were established. If you would like to share about the confusion you mentioned in your last post, if it may be helpful to you, please do.

anita