Hi all,

It’s been some time since I last posted here. Before I posted when my ex-boyfriend and I broke up after 7 years, and how devastated I was. I can’t remember if I’ve posted since then, but I was severely depressed and really don’t know how I was able to make it through the day for a solid 1.5 years. I was honestly in a fog and unaware of most of my surroundings and actions. I got very good at putting up a front.

While I am feeling a little better now, the past has come back to haunt me a bit, and it bringing up some shame. I would love any advice.

When I was at my lowest of lows, I was trying different medications to see which helped the most. Unfortunately it had different side effects, and one was stomach issues that were quite loud. I think the medication also made me smell a little bit, as some can do that. Anyway, the guy that I sat next to apparently told everyone these things when they were all in a meeting and it turned into a little of people making fun of me behind my back. Things like making noises and off-hand comments.

I never addressed/confronted anyone because I figured it might make me feel more awkward to bring it up, since no one ever said anything directly to my face. I do have confirmation that it was about me though. Now, that same guy is at my gym. The gym, for me, is basically my salvation. It’s where I go to feel good, and I’ve been starting to make friends. The gym is really small, so I’m worried that he might start talking to other people about what happened.

I keep telling myself that it’s more of a reflection on him, and any true friends would bring it up if they thought it was weird/grossed out/concerns, but I keep questioning myself.

I’m not really looking to address or go in depth about what people said or did, but if you could offer any advice/different views, I would appreciate it

Thanks in advance.