Hi it’s been a long time since I spoke,

hope you are all well!

ive been drinking heavy the last couple of weekends and been doing to vile stuff to other people.

Last night I went to a friends bbq who I know through my ex. Her boyfriend and my ex are best friends. I got rather drunk and flirted with him I think and completely embarrassed myself I feel so ashamed. My poor friend must hate me but hasn’t said anything.

I spoke to him today and he just found it fully and said that he would go there if it wasn’t for my ex not actually because of my friend.

i wouldn’t go there so I don’t know why I’ve done this I’m riddle with shame and guilt now!! Help me!! I know I need to stop drinking