Dear Anita,

Happy friday by the way.  Thank you for always providing me support and advice that is honest, and advocating the path.

I hope you can enjoy some time outdoors this weekend in good air conditions.

This weekend I am going to be spending time with my husband, looking for a new home (update you on Monday!) and celebrate and Indian holiday tomorrow with his family and cousins.  I am really looking forward to it.  Good plans, good people, and love and support all around.

Dear Anita,

This weekend was incredible.  So much so that it was hard to process SO MUCH good going on at once.  My husband and I spoke about this and him opening up about this was very special.

We are celebrating our one year anniversary this weekend.  As you know, it has been a tremendous year.  The fact that we survived it, and together, is amazing.  Never did I value this, or pay much attention.  As I’ve stated before, I always felt it was a given.  But it is not.  To have a partner that not only supported me but was able to help me achieve clarity – all with the most patience imaginable.  I am slowly seeing this, and with that slowly appreciating more.  As I said before Anita, my mother held so much real estate in my heart and mind – the more it clears up – the more I have space  to see my own self and life clearer, and experience authenticity in regards to that.  To be able to live, appreciate, and enjoy myself and others.

His parents had a surprise cake and mini-celebration for our anniversary.  It was so heartwarming – I can not explain it.  For a moment there I had trouble grasping how grateful I felt – but i did not judge myself, I allowed myself to “enjoy” the moment to the best of my ability.  His whole family was around us, with true joy and support for us.  I felt a level of joy from my husband in that moment I hadn’t in over a year.

The next morning we woke up, and he mentioned how he did not sleep well.  And often doesn’t.  We both don’t often, waking up with anxiety or racing thoughts.  As I’ve told you, my energy has transferred over to him over time – naturally.  We both spoke about how it will take time to “undo” the damage.  And even when things are going great – it is easy to feel like you’re just waiting for the other “shoe to drop.” He mentioned this a few times, and the fact that he can articulate that is a huge step.  Just like all of my progress with you, when I began to be able to speak and write about what I was feeling – it was half the battle sometimes.

I felt like a true team with him yesterday Anita.  Seeing how he is struggling with the same thing as me, grasping the good in life fully – healing trauma simultaneously.  It doesn’t have  to be him, and then me.  It can be US – i see how from here forward I can value us as  a team and we are making leaps and bounds of progress together.

my mother never taught me the value of marriage, or the prioritization of my husband.  you have mentioned this from the very beginning.  you often stated things such as: “for the sake and sanity of your husband and future kids…”

i read it countless time since last year – I get it now.  I really do.

Dear Anita,

Oh I am elated that you are elated.  Yes the path does work.  As does the incredible dedicated support of people like you! Let us rejoice in this.

Dear Anita,

September 3! our wedding was labor day weekend last year.

I wanted to know Anita, how I can send you a message directly – if you would be open to that? or you send one to me?

Today I too, after speaking with you, feel elated, sending you an e-hug.  and so wanted to ask.

Dear Anita,

I thought it would be your policy to not give your email. I also thought perhaps we would both make an exception for each other. I also thought that we would not like to post our personal emails here. I just wanted to see your thoughts, whether you do share, in the future, or perhaps never is just fine. I am glad to have our interaction and grateful for it daily. No pressure. It is a win win for me as you say. And I think for you.

Yes what a great point you made. Time for US. I can be present on what it really is all about, him and I. How simple. How sweet

• This reply was modified 5 years, 7 months ago by Cali Chica.

Me neither 🙂

I had a good day back to work after a joyous weekend. I was able to carry some of this joy into my workday today. This felt very good

Dear Anita,

good morning (early for your side of the country!). I hope you are well rested today. I also hope that you continue to get clearer and clearer skies. I am not well rested today in body, but I am well in spirit. And for that I am grateful. Often, or almost always, all of our parts do not align together. But that is OK, focus on that which serves you the most right now, nourish it, and watch it grow.