Hi Anita,

I am so sorry about how your Precious Hunter passed.  I am sure each & every time you pass the spot it is painful.

I still feel the pain of my Loving Parents everyday & each morning when I wake I look for Stash afraid of seeing him when it is his time for passing.  He is such a precious baby.  I have noticed some changes in his demeanor and I am worried as what to do.  As I mentioned before I want him to pass in my arms except that is not in my hands to have his death a peaceful one.  I have been researching on ways if he is having a heart attack to help him pass at home.  It would take a lot of strength to do what the only 2 options are & I will need to stay strong.

How is the weather for you today?  It is supposed to be 44 here tonight.  At least the humidity is gone.  Summers are nice except I don’t have the hair for humidity & It makes me feel terrible.  My hair just turns to ring-let curls.

I went out today running some errands & people are getting so mean.  I was in the grocery store & 2 women fighting over a can of fruit.  Many shelves are bare when it comes to fruit, except fighting over a can of food is a bit extreme.  I went and paid for my items & couldn’t wait to get home.

I am going to watch a comical movie tonight & try and relax.  I am so glad in these moments I live alone.

I am so torn about a situation & maybe you can share your wisdom on the subject.  Here goes,  My girlfriend which I would give my life for  if needed & both of us mirror one another with the exception of religion.  She keeps telling me if I don’t start going to Church & believing in God I will go to hell.  I believe in a higher power except not the same beliefs as her.  I usually don’t talk politics & religion with people due to everyone has their own beliefs.  When she tells me I will die & go to hell due to not going to church I change the subject.  I love her & we have already made plans on spending Thanksgiving together.  I have told her I respect & love her but our beliefs are so different.  When she comes to my home she tells me I need to remove all my Buddhas.  My house is decorated Very Oriental & I enjoy my Buddhas. I don’t want her to feel uncomfortable, except I am not going to put them away for anyone.  My house~

I wish you a Beautiful and Peaceful evening & will be thinking of you with a smile on your face.

Your Friend,

Shookie~

Good Evening Anita,

My day hasn’t been a pleasant one.  Many things have been happening, a stalker which won’t stop coming by and this has been going on for a couple of weeks.  I called the Sheriffs Department and was told there wasn’t anything they could do for me to call my Sheriff’s Department because we live in different counties.

I was recommended by a neighbor of a man which was supposed to be a good worker &  I had to leave the garage door open so he could get the products I purchased to do the jobs. He rang the doorbell leading into the house asking to use the restroom & I was sick so I asked him to use the restroom in the back of the house which he urinated on the seat & floor.  I locked the door behind him and he got irate.  I went back to bed and the doorbell rings again and he asked me if I would pick him up some lunch/drink and stop by the store and pick him up some toiletries so he could take a shower before he left. I told him he was “NOT”coming back in the house for anything.

I told him I was sick & not going to drive.  He got angry again and left without finishing the job after I purchased over $600 of supplies.

I went back to bed and at 11:00 at night he pulled into my driveway, he was back ringing the bell again & I went to the door and told him if he didn’t leave I was calling the police.  He said he had left something in my garage, screaming for me to let him in.  I spoke in a soft voice & told him he had 3 seconds to get off my property and he did.  Have not heard from him since.

I know Lowe’s Hardware & Home Depot recommend contractors which I don’t trust due to having work done by one of their workers & it was horrible.

Being single & not knowing but a handful of people I am at a standstill.  My house needs so many repairs which I can no longer do with the sight in my eye being so bad.  If the sun comes out it blinds me & all I see are white specks. Also the work needing to be done requires a 16 foot ladder because it is gutter & roof work.  Also under my crawl space to attach my dryer duct because it has fallen out of the floor & needs to be re-attached & I can’t wash and dry my clothes.

That’s only 1/2 of it.  I will stop complaining.  I have so many emotions running through me right now I don’t know where to start writing a list and putting everything in order.

I hope you had a better day than I have.  Maybe tomorrow will be better.

I feel so ashamed for being so gullible believing in these workers.  My Father would be so dissapointed in me. I feel that upsets me the most.

Your Friend’

Shookie~

Hi My Friend,

My neighbor mentioned selling my vehicle due to the problems.  I have come to the solution to keep the battery charger in the car & if needed in the future have the hydraulic system changed to a regular system.  It is a 2022 S 430 Mercedes Benz with only 47.287 miles & I have had the car for 11 years. It is Black Pearl with Black Leather seats.  It looks new because I am the only one that drives it.  The dealer offered me $500 for the car.  I politely said no thanks.  They know it can be fixed & want to fix it and keep the car for themselves.  After researching changing the suspension in a few years if needed would solve the problem. I’m sure other things may pop up & I’ll fix them.  Better than to have car payments & higher insurance.

My neighbor called me this morning and asked if I knew who to call because someone hit a large opossum in front of his house.  He said this thing is so big I don’t know what to do.  I told him to give me a few minutes and I would come and get it.  I laughed so hard because he had those work horse cutting props on each side of the poor baby in the middle of the road.. I put on a glove & picked it up and took it into the woods.  I laughed so hard because it was probably only 3 months old. I took his props & put them back in his garage & hosed off the road.  He said the blood made him sick. He is also the one I got the snake out of his garage & took into the woods.  It was alive, only a black snake.

I hope you are having a nice day.  The weather here is 69 & cozy. My babies are doing well & I need to clean the house except not in the mood.  Too much on my mind.

Have a great day & will be thinking of you my friend.

Shookie~