Hi dear Alessa:

Good to get your message but sorry to read that you are sick again ❤️

I think that mutual trust is super important and I am willing to have a relationship with you based on mutual trust.

Trust has been very, very difficult for me since I was a young child. It’s only recently that I am making a breakthrough in my ability and willingness to trust people.

.. On my other thread I’ve been discussing inappropriate sexual aspects of the “mothering” I received that remind me of what you shared in regard to the “mothering” you received, so I figure we share this type of trauma, and you are the only person who shared this on tiny buddha, nor did I hear any such sharing in real-life.

I am mentioning this because I am currently, with the huge help from Tee, working on it in my other thread. If you’d like to talk about the topic here, if it’d be something that will help you, we can. But again, only if it may be helpful to you, not otherwise. I know what a sensitive, troubling topic it is.

It is Sun morning here, I got up too early, still dark outside, drinking coffee. Later I will attend a Friendsgiving potluck which is a few days before (Family) Thanksgiving. I will spend Thanksgiving itself with people who don’t want to spend it with their families 😊

Please take care of yourself, Alessa ❤️

Hi again, Alessa:

Thank you for all your good wishes! I will tell you about Thanksgiving on Thurs night or on Friday, the day after.

Since it’s the details, not the topic of SA that triggers you, I will post an SA Trigger Warning only where and when I discuss details.

You asked me if there’s something you can do for me.. Well, try to relax best you can when you communicate with me and if you have concerns or question- let me know. I don’t want to be misinterpreted, or misunderstood.

I am okay with you asking me questions.. Asking questions and receiving answers is part of connecting 😊

I read all your posts and I know that certain things you don’t want to talk about on a public forum so I know what not to ask you.

I hope that you are breathing okay as I am typing this and that you are enjoying some restful sleep this very early Tues morning (for you, early Mon afternoon/ evening here and totally dark outside.

🌙 ❤️ Anita

Hi Alessa:

You are very welcome!

Relaxing is a good idea, definitely. I just read Tee’s post in your thread in regard to (I am paraphrasing) relaxing the hypervigilant nervous system of those of us not having had a safe mother to rest in. I am getting better at relaxing my anxiety these very days by paying attention to it when it spikes, being aware of what caused the spike, and relaxing it.

This very morning, before getting out of bed, I asked my inner child: “is there anything you need? Anything I can do for you?” (these are your words, your suggestion, yesterday). She said she wanted to lie down for a little while longer.

I hope that your breathing is continuing to improve and that you will sleep well tonight 💤

I feel encouraged to keep talking about the difficult topics on my other thread, now that I read that it is helping you too.

Thank you for saying I’m very brave. I just experienced the first smile of the day reading the words “very brave” 😊🙏

❤️ 🤍 Anita