It’s 6 weeks since my husband woke up and said his heart was know longer in our marriage, there were no signs or arguments I was completely blindsided and to this day as hard as I try cannot get my head around it. I travel for work which he says has nothing to do with it and he also says I have been the most amazing wife and friend and done nothing wrong. The first 5 weeks I was over emotional and yes I begged even when I knew it was wrong. I am so desperately in love with my hubby and don’t understand. He doesn’t speak much and will not see a councillor. This week I gave him a financial contract and a separation agreement. They are basic as I am hopeful it’s time he needs, he stays in the house when I work away and takes care of the house and dogs, we have no equity as it’s a new mortgage. He also has been taking me to and from the airport, coming and doing jobs and hugs me tight when he says hello and goodbye but still when I ask if he’s coming he says no……One of the clauses was for me and that is to stop me from invading the space he wanted, It’s been two days and I am struggling, I miss him so much and trying to stay busy and achieve goals but I go so far and I crumble like now, In fact I jumped online and found this group in hope someone could respond and say …. anything?……..We moved states a year ago for his work and moved into our new house 6 months ago and in 1 weeks time will be the 1st anniversary of my mums passing…..it’s brutal I have no circle of friends here, I’m from the UK so time difference affects phone call times and my other friends I call in the US are away working….I am very much alone. I looked for local groups but there are none in my area. To top it off I don’t drive, idiot! I took and passed my alcohol test today but really struggling to focus and retain studying for the written, the driving I am fine with as I have driven for 30 years. I am trying, I have been settling into the new house and making it homely, I realize this is where I will be until at least I get some collateral to sell if needed. Oh it’s too much to think of, it’s all so fresh and I am still in love, I have read everything I can but nothing helps or has prepared me from this moment. My boss said to find a group like this as she too went through this and she said no-one other than those who experience this can understand and help…..I am such a social butterfly and the life of every event but living here with no-one is so very brutal…..I am stuck and so very lonely….I know I am saying allot right now but I have allot to say and just need some help, advice support anything really to help me get through the nights, the sun went down and tears came and I can’t stop