Linds,
I’m sorry that its been a little rough the last couple days. When we’re going through loss, feeling lonesome is normal. Because our partner used to help us settle that lonesomeness, when it crops up again it sometimes pushes us into old habits.
I remember after I got contacts I used to try to take off my glasses a lot. The worst was when I was in a conversation with someone and I’d press the bridge of my nose to push my glasses up… I felt like a fool (especially when i’d start laughing).
Consider that you’re in a very special and fertile place to set down the lonesomeness. Being lonely is craving another to make us feel better. If you can accept that you are alone, then you can shut up that voice in your head that begs you to find another dose of him, and become the light which brings love to your world.
With warmth,
Matt