Dear alyahB_:
Regarding the vision you had, predicting the future-I don’t believe in predicting the future, so regardless of whether you call it paranoia or intuition, it would mean nothing to me, having this vision other than to tell me that it is a concern of yours.
From this thread and previous ones, I understand that you view your value as a physically/ sexually attractive young women and you are concerned about the competition, being more- or less- physically/ sexually attractive in comparison to other women in the context of a relationship with a man, a relationship that you are yet to have beyond sexual interactions.
What if you consider seeing your value as something other than a physically/ sexually attractive and engaging entity and look for that something in a man; what if you look for that something before getting sexually involved with him?
Before is the key here, in my suggestion.
anita