Your first love is married and she lives far away. Also, since she had cheated on you (a lot) she didn’t take you seriously. You were a side option in the grand picture of her life. Meanwhile you have her in a frame that takes up the whole house. She loves you for nostalgia’s sake. We all romanticize our past.
This may be the first great love of your life. But you have to look to the future. The future where there are other great loves.
do i just over dramatize it, but why should i believe someday, which i don’t know when. We will get back together.
i do believe, when you have feeling so big and deep, sincerely with someone, then it’s must be mutual. but how people react or respond about the feeling sometimes makes it bias.
Let’s say they’re willing to have an open marriage or the husband wouldn’t care if you hooked up with your first love. But for practicality’s sake, though, would you move across the world for that? Would she?
You could make a Grand Confession and see if the husband’s cool with the fantasy turning real, and if she’s up for it.
Of course you could be disappointed with the response you hear, but at least you’d know.