Home→Forums→Relationships→Lost myself in my relationship
- This topic has 15 replies, 6 voices, and was last updated 7 years, 6 months ago by
Anonymous.
-
AuthorPosts
-
December 5, 2017 at 5:36 am #180593
Inky
ParticipantHi Anastasia,
Your BF is The Lazy Lover! You have to ask to see him but you don’t want to have to ask nonetheless!
So (and I know this will kill you!) if you don’t contact him, I’m wondering how long it would be for him to contact you? Seriously, I’d be very curious!
After Christmas (when things in general quiet down) casually stop contacting him and be a lady-in-waiting until February. If he gets nervous and contacts you after that make sure you are dating another fellow. Say, “I never heard from you so I assumed you weren’t interested!” He’ll be all, “You could have called me anytime!” Then you be all, “I’m the girl in relationships and I’m used to guys chasing the girls! I don’t want you to be the girl in a relationship! Anyway, I’m going out with Steve now, sorry!”
Good Luck!
Inky
P.S. And lose the friend, I don’t trust her! Don’t bring her around your guy, you two already have problems!
December 5, 2017 at 8:10 am #180579Xymon
ParticipantMy kid is looking for a mom. What should I do?
I have been widowed for a year. My wife died of a surgery complication. Now, I’m left with our kid. For months, he has been looking for a mother. At the same time, I’m seeking for a wife who can love me, care for me, and love my child as her own.
While travelling to Colombia for business, I saw a group of Americans my age. I asked them what brought them to Colombia. One of them told me they are clients of a Foreign Affair. They were there to meet women to date and marry them in the future.I immediately searched about AFA. I knew that this is a matchmaking agency which is a sure answer for single dads like me.
Now, I’m one of the clients. I will be attending the tour in Asia next year. I even told my son that he will be having a mom soon. Soon enough…
Did I make the right decision? Do you think this is the answer to raise my son well? Guys, I really need your opinion, I hope you respond to this! Have a great one!
December 5, 2017 at 9:23 am #180637Anonymous
Guest* Dear Xymon: would you like to copy your post above and paste it into a new thread, your own thread? If you do, I will reply to you there.
Dear Anastasia:
You wrote that you are very feminine and your boyfriend is very masculine, and that in being so, you are opposites. You wrote that in the past he dealt with, or had relationships with people similar to him and you had relationships with people similar to you (“people like ourselves”)-
I don’t understand what you mean by “very masculine” and by “very feminine”?
anita
December 5, 2017 at 4:42 pm #180679Anastasia
ParticipantHi Anita,
Well he’s always grown up with sisters who are like tough like a “guys girls” type, he hasn’t been close to many ppl who aren’t like girl girls. I’m a guess I just mean I’m the opposite of that like I’ve never dealt with a masculine man before the guys I’ve been close to in the past have always been willing to be open about their feelings but my bf isn’t so much like that. We vibe well as long as we be ourselves and speak our minds. But I’ve acted emotionally and complained a lot without understanding that I’ve put a strain on us, I feel codependent. And before al the problems he’s always ask me to hangout and chill without me having to initiate, but recently I e I keep beating him to it or when he does ask me I feel like it’s because I’ve complained about it but maybe I shoukd just take it and cherish it right. Idk why I feel like he just responds cause h has to and not bc he genuinely wants to tell me or share with me things with excitement. It’s iust something’s different from the way it used to and he wants to make it work with me and he’s understanding that I’m finding myself he’s patient about it. Why do I keep expecting so much from him or wanting to see more and more interest when he does try to show me when he can
December 6, 2017 at 2:12 am #180731Poppyxo
ParticipantHi Anastasia,
I’m not sure all of Inky’s response is something you should follow – although I do agree with the “let him contact you” part. I think what she said about not contacting & saying “I thought you weren’t interested” is a little like playing a game & games can be dangerous & hurtful. I wouldn’t ask him “when can I see you” & I would wait for him to ask you. Make yourself busy with your friends or family, maybe even take up a new hobby, maybe the gym? That’s good for your mind & body.
I understand about those thoughts you have about previous relationships, I had them too!
Have you tried meditation? Especially the Headspace app? This trains our mind to realise that they’re just thoughts. Our thoughts can be so destructive & sometimes we don’t even know it! Yes it has happened in the past, yes it did hurt, yes it may happen again (no-one can guarantee it won’t happen again) but it hasn’t happened, so what are you protecting yourself from? If it happens deal with it at the time, your thoughts aren’t actually protecting you from anything, they’re actually damaging you & guess what…. only you can change that.I also don’t trust your friend. I can pretty much guarantee you wouldn’t act like that around her boyfriend, it’s disrespectful to you as a friend & the longer you accept these behaviours she is presenting, the longer she feels she can get away with it. I’m not sure talking to her about it would solve anything as she seems to be the type of girl, from what you’ve said, that would either laugh at you, say horrible things to you, or tell you you’re being stupid for thinking such things. Unless of course, it is your brain going into overdrive due to the thoughts you’re having about him leaving you/cheating on you anyway, but only you can determine which of those it is.
What do you think?
December 6, 2017 at 4:24 am #180749Anastasia
ParticipantI’ve been open to my friend about how I feel. And she understands but feels it’s unfair to her that I don’t trust her completely and she’s hurt because she thinks or feels that I think she’s a bad person. She doesn’t want me, as her friend, to feel this kind of way about her she wants me to be comfortable and not be anxious seeing her next to my bf. Like be ok with them having small talk. But her personality is more bubbly and social in general. She says I should be ok with her expressing herself in her personality. I just don’t like my bfs reaction to her. It’s always laughter.
And yes I shouldn’t be overthinking or having thoughts take over me. It’s preventing me from being myself. So the more I cling on to my relationship or the more effort I put in, the less I’ll be satisfied bc I should let my man do that right even if it takes awhile? I just feel he’s getting so used to this emotional insecure me that he might not have desire to hang with me like he’s not gaining anything from it. I’ve told him how I feel these feelings and he trusts and understands I’m figuring things out. I will be myself he encourages me to just be me. He tells me he loves me all the time. I’m having a hard time adjusting to comfortable stages in our relationship.
is it normal not to have much to talk about after you’ve been together for so long? I can’t sxpdct him to always find something to say to me right. That sounds unnatural. Like I should be happy in silence with him. I guess I imagine the scenarios where I’ve seen him laugh with my friend even tho it was harmless socializing. I want to make him laugh all the time with me. But if I don’t have much going on in my life he must not have anything to ask about me right. I can’t wxpect too much? I can’t expect him to be interested when there’s nothing happening to me
December 6, 2017 at 4:41 am #180753Anonymous
GuestDear Anastasia:
Reads to me that you are panicking. Nothing to do with being feminine or masculine. Reads like he is attentive and loving toward you, no problems, really, except your anxiety creating a storm. First thing for you to do, I believe, is to relax. You have to calm down- the relationship is okay. You are okay. He is okay. Relax best you can.
Maybe a daily long walk will help, maybe daily exercise, a yoga practice.
Your anxiety needs to be dealt with, managed, contained.
anita
December 7, 2017 at 6:09 am #180917Anastasia
ParticipantHi Anita,
yes ive been trying to relax and get my thoughts under control. I need to be calm.
do you think I shouldn’t make a big deal out of if he stops saying goodnight to me? Is it wrong that I notice it as a sign hes tired of doing that like losing effort or interest? Because for me if you love someone, I would want to I wouldn’t be tired of it. Is it bad to complaim about that?
and how do you make a man chase you and be interested without being clingy? I’ve been told that I’m overly in love with him so how do I calm that. And how do I regain who I am and know that he will love me through it all
December 7, 2017 at 7:06 am #180923Anonymous
GuestDear Anastasia:
The title of your thread is “Lost myself in my relationship”- a correct title, reads to me.
There were times in your life that you were calm, correct? Now you are not. There were times you made sense, that you thought your brain is serving you well, correct? Not so anymore. And there were times, I hope, that you valued yourself, but now it is all about him, about whether he says goodnight too you on any one night or how often he calls you.
This mindset is not working for you, it is working against you.
It is interesting, how you are so scared of losing him when the real problem is, as your title indicates, that you already lost yourself! Having lost yourself, or being in the process of losing yourself, means you lost… everything that really matters.
If you continue to lose yourself, the relationship is likely to be lost as well: besides the fact that you are lost from the relationship, he is likely to lose, or continue to lose motivation to be in it. If you do complain to him about how often he contacts you or says goodnight, he is likely to lose motivation. Most people, maybe all, do not like to be micro-managed, every move they make or fail to make, being pointed out to them and criticized.
Being loved by another is not a right; it is a privilege. You can’t demand it.
No one loves another all the time, feeling affection for another all the time. Everyone gets annoyed with others some of the times, bored at other times. Just like you cannot control the weather, making is sunny all the time, you cannot make him feel affection and a need for you all the time.
Please do post again with your thoughts and feelings and I will reply further, if you would like.
anita
December 9, 2017 at 11:31 am #181237Anastasia
ParticipantI understand. I guess every change that I noticed, even small things that he would forget or stop doing when he would consistently meant that he was losing feelings or I wasn’t getting what I deserve.
Him forgetting to say goodnight to me, him not being used to phone calls, him not expressing his eagerness to see me the way he used to but would still agree to see me and make plans…these are things I shouldn’t misinterpret as him losing feelings for me or taking me for granted right?
is it normal to not want to talk to your special partner all the time? Like should I not worry if I’m not the first thing he thinks of after everything?
I understand no one likes to be micromanaged. But it’s because he never had an issue before sharing everything on his own. So I felt the sudden change, maybe it’s exhausting, meant something was wrong with us.
hes also very comfortable with me so he doesn’t feel like he has to talk all the time or think of something to talk to the way he would with a person that we don’t see often. I should udnerstns that’s normal right?
how do I stop reading into his actions too much and see things for what it really is like I used to? We had a great date yesterday, and he always ends up reassuring me he’s here with me and he’s willing to take in all of it that we go through together. And he’s been making a lot of plans with me.
I guess I’m complaining at the way we talk when we are apartlike he’s not expressive of many of his thoughts and feelings through text so that’s why I desire to see him so much in person for our quality time.
if you can answer all these questions for me, it would be really reassuring and helpful. Thanks so much
December 9, 2017 at 2:31 pm #181253Anastasia
ParticipantAnother thing, whenever plans wouldn’t need work out for us he’s always make an effort to reschedule to the next day or so right away or come back to me to make plans to meet the next day . But lately he doesn’t he just says we’ll have to do it another time lol and that’s it no eagerness to see me or affection
December 9, 2017 at 2:32 pm #181255Anastasia
ParticipantIt makes me feel like that’s another thing that’s changed as if he lost motivation or is that just unrealistic to expect him to keep doing? Should I not be upset about it? I want his eagerness through text too
December 9, 2017 at 3:37 pm #181261Maryellen
ParticipantDear Anastasi; I would also suggest dumping the friend. If this is a person that has betrayed you before and hurt you then it’s completely understandable that you feel like you can’t trust her. There’s a reason you feel like that, and if she hasn’t shown you that she is trustworthy or amended her ways then its best to just let her go, as she may cause more problems in the future.
If anything just don’t hang around her and your boyfriend at the same time.
As for the guy stuff, take a deep breath and focus on building your relationship with yourself. Cultivate love for yourself and do the things that once brought you happiness. Relationships can fall apart when people stop tending to their own needs and pour everything into another person. Just stop reaching out to him and let him come to you. Trust me it works.
December 9, 2017 at 3:40 pm #181263Maryellen
ParticipantI’ve been in a situation where I was being very needy and constantly worrying about the other guy and what his feelings for me were, this neediness just pushed him away. As soon as I let go of trying to reach out to him and started focusing on myself, my guy saw this. He saw the change in me and all of a sudden was interested again. Guys are very simple, they want to be the one chasing not the other way.
December 10, 2017 at 4:59 am #181357Anonymous
GuestDear Anastasia:
1. Reads to me, from your sharing, that he is currently still interested in you and in a relationship with you.
2. It is not realistic on your part to expect his feelings and behavior to be always the same, to not change. Humans do not operate in such sameness, always the same. Even your anxiety, as persistent as it is, sometimes takes a break and you feel calm, for a moment or an evening… correct?
3. If this relationship lasts for your lifetime, assuming this is your hope, then you are not enjoying it being as worried as you are. So let’s say at 85, sitting with him in the back porch of some old house, on a reclining chair, you post on tiny buddha: this relationship, seems like it did last a lifetime but I was so anxious for all these decades that I didn’t enjoy it!
Anxiety is raining on your parade: it does nothing at all to help in any way, shape or form. It only damages.
4. Let’s say this relationship ends, let’s say he is no longer interested- your greatest fear at this point- what then? What happens then?
Waiting for your reply to #4.
anita
-
AuthorPosts