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August 4, 2016 at 3:58 am #111486
Inky
ParticipantHi dijadei,
How about changing the script? How about YOU break up with HIM? He will be either relieved, flabbergasted, confused and/or realize what he’s lost.
I’m not saying you should do this as a manipulative tactic.
I’m saying you should actually break up with him.
You’re the one pursuing a Ph.D. program, correct? You are going to want that degree when/if you start a family one day (with or without him). You need all your energy in your intellect, not your emotions.
Tell him, “You’re stressing me out. This isn’t working. Check in with me next year.”
Then don’t worry about him, dress for him, talk to him, etc.
After New Years when he contacts you again (they always do) you will revisit the relationship from a place of power and equal footing.
Good Luck,
Inky
August 4, 2016 at 7:26 am #111497Anonymous
GuestDear dijadei:
This is my understanding: the troubles in this relationship are because of how you expressed to him your growing anxiety. I think you have an understanding of this part but a misunderstanding in believing that your worth has something to do with it, and that looking more attractive, make up can fix anything, that explaining to him that your anxiety has nothing to do with him.
I don’t believe him wanting out of the relationship has anything to do with his evaluation of your worth and physical appearance and it is probably not about him feeling guilty for your anxiety (he didn’t google about that, did he?) I think his motivation wanting out is to avoid more pain. He doesn’t want to suffer from your anxiety. Can’t blame him for that, can you?
Two things: heal and manage your anxiety best you can and have a serious talk with him- ask him if indeed your understanding of his motivation to want out is correct, talk calmly to him, not anxiously, not attacking or defending, just wanting information, like a good, sincere friend. If he is calm, if he doesn’t feel threatened by you, he will honestly tell you the truth. Then, let him know you understand, that it is understandable that he doesn’t want to suffer, and shouldn’t suffer unnecessarily.
Let him know that you are working on healing/ managing your anxiety AND on not mistreating him as your reaction to your anxiety, that when you get anxious next, you will be thinking: how do I not automatically react to my anxiety in ways that mistreat your boyfriend.
It will take a lot of effort on your part and time for him to observe and trust that indeed you will not mistreat him by checking on him, interrogating him, blaming him, making it all about you- and forgetting his pain, his well being.
anita
August 5, 2016 at 8:41 am #111582Anonymous
Guest* kush420: the “Grow a pair and end it already” part of your reply is disrespectful and abusive to the original poster. See to it that your future replies and communications on tiny buddha are respectful to all members.
anita
August 5, 2016 at 11:49 am #111602Lakra
ParticipantDear dijadei,
I think first of all because you´re unsure about your relationship you´re starting to have doubts about yourself – even trying to change yourself. The fact is he fell in love with you the way you were – so there´s no need to change who you are just to keep him with you (it´s also not honest to yourself).
You´ve changed your attitude and that´s why he became unsure and insecure as well.I´m not excusing him lying to you or hiding things from you here. There´s the reason why you changed but you should also ask yourself why am i so scared? Did you have relationships before? Then you should know even if this one doesn’t work out (i know it sounds harsh) the next one just might if i learn from this.
For yourself first and foremost you need to keep your anxiety in check. Secondly like anita suggested have a good calm talk with him. If he doesn’t want to be with you then you have to accept that and move on. You´re smart and beautiful and your should never have to convince anyone of that.
Yes you made mistakes but so did he. Either you both work things out if you think it´s worth it – or you both move on.August 8, 2016 at 4:27 am #111828Eliza
ParticipantI think that a similar thing happened to me.
I was with someone but I wasn’t happy because I really didn’t love him. I was forcing myself to settle just because I was so eager to be with someone and because he was totally different from the other men I’ve liked and had made me suffer. He was kind, gentle, etc., but I suspect he was in the same situation as me, that he didn’t really love me too, but was feeling lonely, as he soon started to pressure me into spending more time together and making plans about moving in together when we hadn’t even been dating for 3 months. I soon fell into a depression and deep down I knew I had to end it to heal myself and move on, but I was too scared of loneliness as well. Fortunately he sat me down to talk one day and that was it, we split up. I cried a lot, I felt really really sad for days after that but I knew it was the right thing to do. Then I started seeing a therapist to work through my self esteem issues and I eventually felt better. I actually regret I hadn’t gathered the courage myself to finish the relationship sooner.What I want to say, your BF might be in the same situation as I or my ex was.
It’s going to be painful, I know, but if you love him, set him free, it’s obvious that he’s suffering. You are suffering too, and you don’t deserve that -on one does, actually. If he’s the one for you, you’ll eventually end up together, but if he’s not you’ll move on and grow as a person.
Have you tried going to therapy? Sometimes our demons are in our own heads without us realising. I really hope your problems dissapear soon and you are happy again. BTW, sorry for my English, it’s not my mother tongue, but I hope I’ve explained myself well. Big hug. -
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