I saw that someone reported it …..very strange , indeed.
Nothing inappropriate, so nothing to worry about

I read that you are very, very depressed these days ….this is understandable, as you are going through so much change, a sale of a place that was a significant part of your life disturbs your energy, emotional issues that were sorted years ago suddenly return, to be emotionally processed again. Also, you have a future that will be different. This is the human condition, in time the dust will settle.

Last night I was out socially with a friend, on Wednesday his wife of 27 years left him, no warning ⚠️ sign, no explanation, just “this marriage no longer works for me” . He was an emotional 😭 wreck, his simple question was “why?” , I believe unfortunately that he will never get a satisfactory answer to his question, he will spend many years, if not the rest of his life trying to figure this out .

Remember, you are not alone ….

Anita
Hope you are feeling better , day by day.

As you know , I am reflecting on my career and life as I near retirement .
I am reflecting on 6 months every week, capturing in writing my memories and feelings from these months.

The bigger impact , for me anyway , are romantic relationships.
As you know from my writings here, I have had 3 relationships that resonate. The girl from my late teens, the woman I was dating before I ended it when I met my wife to be.

The first two relationships were straight forward to write about, they have a beginning and end, ended a long, long time ago, so I see the full picture and context.

I am now reflecting on the first 6 months with the lady I would marry and be with for over 35 years , and still counting. OMG, it is hard to write my deep feelings from these months as I can see how they impacted my whole life and define my life today. I see how my wife’s strengths enriched my life, I see her little quirks that annoyed me then, and still do today …..I see my own driven nature,and see how it played out, driving to build a secure home for our family but with the cost of stress and undermining the relationship at times. Every paragraph I write about these 6 months , has me thinking about my life today. I see my poor communication skills, as I don’t want to offend. Also, people that were important and have passed on over the decades, like our parents, I feel the loss again.

In summary, what started as a life reflection is becoming hard, as reflection is very powerful, emotions and feelings from times long gone become very real again.

A bit of me is beginning to question if this is a heathy reflection exercise ?

Gerard.

Anita
Yes, may be some Limerence , will a small “l”.
I believe it is more a reflection on a life well lived as I prepare for retirement , a new start as I step out of my old life . The real drive is to find new meaning and purpose in retirement.

Also, I feel my marriage is in a new chapter , where the level of mutual understanding transcends the highs and lows of a life together , forming a comfort that is wonderful.

I am a deep thinker , I consider and reflect , seeking meaning and understanding . I know I am becoming spiritual. First, seeking to understand my life, who know where it will lead me .

Gerard