My boyfriend and I broke up after a bad argument. He texted my phone right after the accident and ended up speaking to my sister who had my phone while I hospitalized. She was the one who told him what happened. I was T-boned by a driver and I suffered spinal damage because of it. He took it very hard. My sister kept him abreasted the whole time. He let her know through me he is with me and the bs we argued over didn’t matter. It was about us. When I came home, he confessed deeper feelings for me than he’s had at all and said he admires my character and who I am as a person. These are things he has not acted on before this or even said. I was just rehospitalized last week. My sister this time let him know again, and he was worried and told her to let me know his work schedule which so already knew about. He works two jobs and one he just started so wouldn’t be able to come to the hospital during the week. I understood. I came home two days later, and my doctor phone conferenced about the likelihood of coming out after the spinal surgery. I lost it, this will change my life. I called him first, bc I wanted his emotional support bad and also hadn’t heard from him yet so I knew something must have been wrong for him to know I came back home and he wasn’t there. I called and he answered then it hung up. I waited for him to call back and he didn’t or text. I started feeling unimportant and upset. I went to the house to see what’s going on. We argued, I questioned how much he cared and it was frustrating for him and I didnt mention the new info about the surgery. For days we don’t speak, I find out I have to cover a big copay for this surgery coming up. We had a prior arrangement for him to give back $200 to me before my accident, so I asked can I please have it bc it’s a necessity or me rn. He ignored that for a day. I told him I need this and although we’re at odds this is something I need. He got upset and said I was being petty for asking for this at this time and he will pay me the money then we don’t have to speak again because he’s done. My heart fell. I pushed him away because I was emotionally vulnerable and selfish and wanting him at a crucial time, and based our entire relationship on that moment. It’s giving me nightmares last night knowing I can not come through this surgery and my last conversation with someone I love is this kind. Just coldness. I texted him several messages asking could we please talk, and that life was short and I didn’t wanna lose him over what he thought was a spiteful play about money. Our relationship has no price tag for me to hit him low like that and he won’t answer anything I say. I’m scared because this surgery is scheduled soon and he views me as the enemy for coming at him how I did. Where do I find the strength? I’m scared for me and fear a bond he may not want to mend. What do I say to him?