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Hi mete!
You’re not alone.
Last year I made the mistake/”mistake” of saying that for people in a threesome, what the husband and wife did was none of the third partner’s business (because: marriage). Holy PC Crap Storm, Batman!! I was called names, tried to be bullied off the forums. I stayed silent until someone else actually came to my defense. Then I rejoined the conversation. Soon I was more “right” as more and more people broke out of their PC Fear and agreed with me.
What I would do is go back as if everything was normal. If anyone gives you crap, just say, “You’re still thinking/talking about that?” And never, ever apologize. If you do then people will think they are right/”right” after throwing an obscene amount of crap to the poster that is far worse than anything he posted! I wish I had a certain link, but if you Google Search there are ways and techniques to shut down an internet argument. Even to the point of alluding that you’re a moderator. (i.e. “We on (name of forum) support the expression of all opinions, but flaming will not be tolerated.”)
Also remember that your UserName/Nickname is NOT YOU. They actually don’t know who you really are.
Best,
Inky
Thanks for the thoughts. I’m now back on the forum and will be for as long as it takes for it to stop being ‘that place where that bad thing happened’. Really though, its well past it’s hayday and if I had simply had the foresight to drop out without causing drama, that would’ve been perfect. The set of interests I had developed back then weren’t really something I could freely discuss there – I talked about how this and that was a threat, but really, it was that forum that was a threat to me. It had some alright people but was quite honestly more trouble than it was worth.
And yes, I did say some of my genuine opinions – only to receice dismissal and mockery in return by people who clearly had no interest beyond making the worst of me. And that really pissed me off, so they achieved their goal, while I lost. And now I have to let go of resentment toward them and forgive them for that.I did have some people who stood up in my defense and I’m very grateful to them for that. I’ve beeb using this nickname for a good decade now and it’s kind of become my second name in some sense and now it feels tarnished.
My heart goes out to you Mete. Like Vesper said, internet makes everything big. People just rip others apart. Not that these people are bad, its just the way the world is and the majority of them are nice and they understand sooner or later but mob mentality is a dangerous thing. Its just that some people can handle it while introverts find it hard I guess; when they get targeted. I am not rationally embarrassed for what I said and to this day I do not understand what was in it that made people react the way they did and call all sorts of names and labels. Inky, sometimes there are some people you meet quite regularly and you know they’ve read the post, they just don’t know its you and its quite hard. Lets face it, no matter what our opinions are, no one is born with an anti-shaming circuitry in the brain. If its one-to-one, you can explain or if you get shamed by 10 people you can explain, but on the internet, communication is difficult. People can twist your opinions and project their own mind and then put the blame on the original poster when the original poster has nothing to do with it. An internet forum is the last thing you would worry about in life, but you never know what life has in store for you until it shows up!
Sometimes it’s a gut reaction that maybe you express before you have all the facts. Sometimes it’s a long-held belief that might be anchored in questionable history.
Both of these statements ring true. For example, I had never considered myself racist in the strict sense of that word, but I did have negative impressions of some groups of people and may have picked up influences that were less than healthy that no one had really brought into question before all of this. For example, I can remember moments from my teenage years where I already had a negative impression of the Romani and held that belief for years. I never had a bad experience with them myself, was smart enough to be wary of them. I’m an international student and really did not give too much of a damn about race in general (which is good) and it wasn’t really part of my set of interests anyway. That second post was very much premature in that there’s really no reason whatsoever for me to set my opinion in stone at such a young age on an ever-evolving issue such as immigration and islam. Best to leave your options open.
Thank you for your concern, anita, but I will stick around on that forum for a while longer. The people there have been very understanding and forgiving and right now I’m feeling quite lonely, so I’d like to connect with people. I moved out last summer and under normal conditions would’ve welcomed the peace with open arms but I haven’t been able to enjoy it due to all of this. I normally enjoy spending time on my own, but now I crave for relationships and activity that puts my mind out of all of this.
I will, however, steer clear of politics for the time being. I tried my hand at it, blew it and caused myself massive amounts of headache, so perhaps it really isn’t for me. Life was much more enjoyable and simpler when I stuck to other interests.
I generally try to make the best of people and appreciate a good debate for its own sake, but some people are quick to instantly jump into personal insults, mockery and so forth. Particularly the PC anti-racism crowd.
The attack happened just between those two posts, the latter being the one that drained me of all my energy. I do wonder how I would’ve reacted to those latter attacks had I been at full mental health when they happened.
I tend to rank years based on how good they were. 2012 was great – I graduated, had no money issues, continued my studies. 2013 was pretty good as well. 2014 I didn’t land a job, which cut into my school motivation and I was on a shurt fuse – you could tell by my posts on that forum becoming less considerate. Add to that the fact that I was just becoming interested about immigration and such and it was a disaster in the making because you really have to be careful with your words when it comes to this stuff. 2015 could’ve been great since I did get a job and moved out, but it ended up being my worst year yet due to this. 2016 is shaping up to be mediocre – if I finish my studies properly and land a job, that should up my mood quite a bit, but I’ll still be a far cry of my normal self. I plan on continuing straight to Master’s studies and by then I’d say I’ll be in good enough mental condition that my school performance won’t be terribly affected. Still, what an utterly pointless episode this has been. What could possibly be more important than your own mental health? Once you lose it, what do you have left? I keep telling my past self – you have precisely one responsiblity – keep yourself at strictly 100% mental capacity so that you can handle what life throws at you. That is nonnegotiable – you do not have permission to do anything that could endanger it.
You’re absolutely right, anita. The first post I made was largely okay for the most part and I made some good points but the people I was debating with were clearly on a different page and didn’t know where I was coming from with my concern. So I supposed to logical followup was ‘I need to show them!’ and I wrote that second post – and now I’m telling myself, doing this won’t change a single thing, you’ll only ruin everything for yourself. And that is what happened. I suppose I’m a bit of a perfectionist in the sense that I want to do everything right the first time around. This was everything but, and now I need to go back on my words and keep apologizing just to feel better and climb towards the kind of peace of mind I took for granted. You really don’t know what you have till you’ve lost it.
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