Well… I think I know but still feel a bit lost here.

I am a single woman in mid-30s. I live in a foreign country for many years. I came here in the beginning as an international student and found a job after completing my program and have been working and living here since. I guess this is where I call home now since most of my career/social life/friends/networks are here. My families are all on the other side of the Pacific ocean.

I went through a terrible breakup a while ago and have never been ready to seriously date anyone ever since. Most of my friends are either in a serious relationship or starting their own families. I enjoyed my single life and focused on improving myself and I do feel I am now more mature than before. I have my own career. I have hobbies and things to do in my spare time. I have tons of friends to talk/hang out with. I help take care of my friend’s dog. I enjoy spending time with myself, too.  But recently the feeling of loneliness hit me so hard that I start to question my purpose of being. I don’t know why I am here. My friends suggest I should start dating again but I seem to lose the ability to love or even have the romantic feelings for anyone. I don’t even have the motivation to go on dates.

I am afraid this is how my life will always be until I die. I wonder if anyone has ever been through that I am going through now. Any advice will be helpful for me.

Thanks!