Thanks Mark for your reply. I just feel bad that I wasn’t ever good enough for him. I have seen the way he is around his friends and when he is with me, he is all serious and has nothing to talk about. He did try to take out time for me but at the cost of what? I am scared that I will invest my time in this and he will end it six months down the line.
This doesn’t mean you’re not good enough, it just likely means you aren’t a match. Not being a match with someone has no bearing on your value as a person, though. It just is what it is… which is completely neutral. Maybe thinking of it that way will help you to feel better?
I agree with everyone else that it’d be a good idea to move on. When you are with the right person, you will click better. When you are together, you’ll have things to talk about and he’ll be just as engaged in the conversation as you are. There are a ton of signs here saying that he just isn’t your guy and there is someone out there who will be a much better fit for you.
But be careful not to pressure someone into voicing intentions of a marriage commitment to you specifically too soon (making sure they aren’t against marriage in general is a good idea though). They can assure you of a future with you until their face turns blue, but that doesn’t mean they won’t dump you 6 months later. So try not to get too attached to needing that because it really doesn’t mean much until they actually propose, even if they give you assurance and mean it when they say it at the time. Things change sometimes.