Hey, I thought he appreciated me too. He always stated so. You never know what people are capable of, however. I really think he got bored with me, and wanted to end it, and didn’t have the guts to tell me on the phone, because he felt obligated, because I  had spent so much money on him. So, he did what a coward would do. He sent that stupid lousy email, and that is how he ended it. Case closed…..People like that are able to compartmentalize a lot of their lives. He deserves every, single thing that his wife gives him. She is abusive, and cruel, and his kids will turn out the same way. They see a father accepting that kind of behavior and will grow up to be just as cruel. He has taught his daughters that it is okay to stay with an abusive, alcoholic, drug addict simply because. I really thought he was going to change his life around, and do something about his unhappiness, but it turns out that all he wanted to do was have a mid-life fling.

It is now June 29th, and the jerk never called, emailed or contacted me again. I have been having dreams about him almost every night too. It is amazing that I still miss him. I honestly don’t know how the guy could’ve done that to me, but he did. Lesson learned.

The lesson learned is NEVER get involved with a married man, even if he is separated!

Update! I had sent the bastard an email a couple of months after he stopped communicating with me. Here is what I wrote:

 I want you to be VERY aware that I am extremely disappointed, disgusted and honestly, quite sad that you misrepresented yourself to me as that of a caring friend, someone I could confide in, and someone that I genuinely was extremely fond of. However, it turns out that all I was, was a temporary toy for you to play with and use. When you got bored, I wasn’t even worth a lousy phone call, text or email explaining why. When I think of all the support, encouragement and care that I generously gave to you, it makes me embarrassed & ashamed the person receiving my attentions didn’t give one shit about me, not even as a friend. I guess you figured everyone else has taken my kindness for granted, so why not do the same! Whatever the decision was, I would’ve respected your choice 100%, no questions asked. Obviously, the feeling wasn’t ever mutual, because I was discarded like an empty beer can. I didn’t need this done to me, especially after what I have been put through in my life. I needed a friend, not someone to prey on my kindness & generosity. Let me be perfectly clear on something. This isn’t about being upset about anything other than you not having the
decency to let me know. You thought that ridiculous email about your job was good enough? Would it have killed you to take five minutes to shoot me a text or email to let me know that you didn’t want to talk to me any longer? 
In closing, you caused me massive confusion, hurt, embarrassment and humiliation. That is what I deserved after being so generous with you? Don’t worry. You won’t ever hear from me again. Your stupid secret is safe. I want you to know what an absolute shitty & cowardly thing that was to do to someone. You are definitely not the person I thought you were…

I never got a response, of course. However, last week at 1 am, someone texted me. I was very groggy from being in a deep sleep and looked at my phone. Low & behold it was from the bastard’s cell #. Here is what he texted me at 1 am:

Your email was dead on after I read it.. im a piece of shit…thats why im where im at…

Okay, I would very much like to get opinions on what this text meant, and why this jerk bothered sending it. Was he hoping I’d respond? I am 99.9% positive he was drunk.

Was he admitting he was wrong? What in the world did he mean by “I’m a piece of sh*t and that’s why I’m where I’m at.”

Where is he at? Why is he calling himself a piece of shit? Was he hoping I’d respond? I am more confused now than ever before. Also, will he try reaching out again? I don’t get it.

I actually think I’m wanting to know opinions of this to make myself feel better. Somehow, if I think he feels regret & guilt, it will make my heart feel better. You don’t know what this guy did to my confidence, self worth & value. It would be easy to just blow him off, but I need closure, even if its opinions from others. In my 44 years on this earth, I never thought in a million years that someone could destroy my soul the way this guy did. I feel so stupid. I did things with this guy that I feel so ashamed. Sexual things I wish I had never done. He is probably laughing behind my back to his friends, and making fun of me that I bought him all those gifts. I’m sure he is using his expensive rifle too for the upcoming hunting season. Or, maybe he’ll sell it. Who knows.