Hey Amanda,
I definitely can understand the complex issues which you are facing.I am sure off late every girl deals with these feelings,which sometimes stretches too far and eventually they suffer from mood attacks.But you know what even if you are gifted with the utmost curvacious physique or a “Devil May Care” looks..things aren’t pleasing as long as u don’t feel good about yourself….personally i felt the reason behind bearing” Confidence” is the feel good factor which purely works out….if u don’t feel good with the credentials you are having in your body and highlighting the flaws constantly,it takes away your charm…In a way you are also becoming oblivion to your assets and inviting negativity which fails to attract people..As for the muscles or the anatomy of your body you can always shape them up with healthy exercise regime and patience, but don’t let it take too much toll on you because mental health is equally important .Be kind to yourself and feel happy cause it will naturally make you fit and glowing….I don’t deny that you shouldn’t take care or stop rectifying your flaws but don’t be depressed with it.For what you have others may be wanting it desperately and you never know people may find you extremely attractive in your current looks…After all, “Beauty Does Lie In The Eyes Of The Beholder”……………….Take Care Keep Smiling!!!!!!!!!!!!