I hear you, me- being in between wanting something and not seeing it as something that’s possible, wanting her close, yet not seeing it as something that’s possible..?

I just wish you have what you need: something close, something you can trust..?

Anita

Dear me
I have read most but not all of your posts, but definitely the last one. I know these is just a snapshot of you. The impression I am perceiving from the content & tone. Is very much push pull. You offer or are offered something & then almost immediately shut the door on yourself or the other person. This perplexing way of interacting will not help you grow any deep meaningful relationships in your life.

My cousin has overused his sense of humor all his life, maybe as a protective shield or just habit either way he is now over 60 & has never lived with a woman for an extended period. it is hard to forge a relationship when one is constantly not sure if the other person is “just joking”
Kind regards
Roberta

Dear me:

Roberta identified a pattern that seems true, a pattern of “just joking” push- pull..

Just Kidding Push Pull (acronym JKPP.. lol).

I understand about the distance, but since the two of you are still communicating, how about practicing something different from JKPP: saying what’s true to you in a direct way.

Just a bit of practice, nothing that’s too much..?

It can help you in ways you don’t know yet.

🤍🌿 Anita

Dear me:

Yes, clearly she wanted to see you.. she had so much fun with you!

I suppose she is getting to know the part of you that’s a bit fearful of getting too close (in-person and long-distance)…

“I’ll try.”- that’s the best you can do..

Although Yoda said: “Do. Or do not. There is no try.” 😄

🤍🌿 Anita

You just brought the first smile to my face, me, and it’s afternoon!