Dear  Faye:

Reads to me  that  you were injured, naturally, in the context  of  your family of origin, what  you indicated to  have been a “dysfunctional childhood… unhealthy environment… yelling, adult  fights, neglecting, bad words.. etc.”

That “too sensitive” reference  to yourself is an indication, to me, that you were injured, emotionally.

But you “broke free” and with all that youthful energy you lived life with passion until you ran out of that energy and that emotional injury took over, exhausting  you further.

And now, you are hurting and tired.

I think it is time to start the  long process of healing. A plan of healing, is  what I am thinking. If you would like to share more about your current life circumstances (are you living alone, for one), please do, for the purpose  of developing such a plan.

anita

Faye,

These repeated breakdowns sound like a pattern to be addressed.  Are you seeing a professional about this?

Right now you sound like you are in deep depression.  A therapist can help with this too.

Like all of us, it looks like your childhood is the root to this.

Take care,
Mark

Dear Faye:

You tried very hard and worked hard but you didn’t stand up for yourself as you tried and worked hard, you kept operating as the child that you were, putting other people first and you last, correct?

If so, all that hard work was likely to fail you.

You wrote: “Sometimes I want to run away from family … because they keep reminding me of the past, cold relationships at home, no communication, disengagement and belittling treatment:-

You mean, your present experience at home is similar to your past experience at home, that is, the past is … still happening?

anita