I am 36 years old and more confused than ever. I find myself most days feeling like most of what is presented to me is pointless and useless. I try and remind myself that I need to be grateful , but sometimes it feels like I can say it but NOT feel it. This year I have been five years clean from alcohol. I feel more confused now than I ever have. I have all of the things in my life that I wanted before getting sober, but I still feel lost. Most of it I feel has to do with the area in which I live in. There isn’t a lot of opportunity around me. I feel like my spirit is always longing for more. My husband is completely against moving, so I feel stuck literally and figuratively. Ive tried to put my energy into my passions, music mostly, but I still feel like there must be so much more out there for me in the world and all I am doing is squandering my time. Any feed back is appreciated.
You wrote that what is presented to you is pointless and useless. What according to you would be useful? You also feel that the area in which you live is making you feel that way. Have you thought about what in a different area would help you look up to life? Often we imagine that something out there is better. Defining what we want is often the first step that we need to take in order to gain clarity.
That “more” that you are longing for, is that the feeling you had before, at a time long ago, that everything is okay, or that everything will be okay, that safe, exhale type of feeling, nothing to fear?
I ask because I think that this is the More that I looked for.
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