My ex girlfriend broke up with me back in June. Basically she found old dating apps on my phone that I either never went on and forgot they were there or they were viruses that appeared when I turned my phone on or off. The one real one was hot or not and I never even talked to anyone on it and the virus was meetme I clicked on that infromt of her and it went on the Internet and said download it now. One of the reasons I forgot they were there was that I had bad OCD and would get anxiety if I went on those pages so I never did and truthfully forgot about them. She didn’t believe me. During it the most threatening or mean thing I said was maybe I should hurt myself but said I was sorry right after. I also said I couldn’t eat or sleep I was so sad. We were with each other and said nice things for more days after that. A week After the break up I made a fake Facebook account that she probably knew was me so she so she added my real one back but ended up blocking both. I erased the fake one.

Another mistake I made was 2 weeks after I went to a bar with a friend and added 3 girls on Facebook because my friend told me to . she saw this and blocked my account and dropped off everything I gave her. We even became friends for a week after. Then I sent her another big text to try and get back with her . She said don’t text me. But then we snap chatted for about a week almost as if talking to each other. Then the last text so far from my phone was August 9 I sent her a nice happy birthday and she talked nice the whole day but the next morning I sent a very nice good morning and she got mad and said I was talking to other girls on snapchat . She was second friend because she didn’t talk to me anymore and I just got random hellos from people. I got mad and said she hurt me to so I should block her. But she knew other ways to contact me and that I love her. She replied with FU and blocked my phone and Facebook. A week later I sent a small text from my friends phone but I didn’t get to say everything I wanted to. A week after that I dropped off a gift I got her earlier that she returned on her street in front of her house but not on her property.

Earlier in November I went on meetme that I just downloaded for the first time because that was the virus one she got mad at ,to try and move one because everybody was telling me to and saw her on it . I didn’t try talking to her I just clicked on her profile then she blocked mine. Now I still love her and I want to send her a hand written letter without my name on the envelope so she might open it and read it. It will be extremely nice and just to apologize and wish her the best of luck in the future.

I’m scared that she might be able to get a restraining or no contact order against me because of what people are saying. Can she? And if time matters how long should I wait before I can send her anything without her being able to? Also how bad are those and do they stay forever? This was the worst things I did but there was more good things and things she did between some events. I just figured to show the bad parts because if I can get by those then maybe there’s hope.

This is the hand written letter I want to send if I can . I had one made that explained in full detail how I never cheated and how sorry I am but most people say I shouldn’t send that one because I should only go that into it if we ever meet in person. Also some say send it in January. others say February and others say may or later. What do you think would be the best time to send it for either her to except it and or for her to not be able to do anything with the law against me.

Hi this is Sean.

This letter isn’t set out to try and hurt you it’s simply a few things I wanted to say. I just ask that you give me the courtesy of reading it. At least for the sake of all the good times we had together.

I think you made the right decision at the time to end the relationship. I believe I was very immature back then and not really ready to be in one.

I’m very sorry for the things I did in the past,for the inappropriate words that I used after you found the apps. Since we last talked I have gotten help for my OCD and have made a lot of improvements with it.
I never meant to threaten or pressure you to come back it just came out wrong because I didn’t know how to act back then. Same goes for my actions after and during the break up, they weren’t meant to make you jealous and I truthfully now know that I should have just listened to my heart and not what others said to do. I was scared because you were my first girlfriend which made my actions become very childish. I understand what I had done to wrong you and I’m apologizing from the bottom of my heart .

You have shown me many possibilities in life and shown me many great things. You have made me smile ,very happy and above all you have made me love you and that’s what life is…and I will never forget this.
Do you remember when you asked me if we were a good couple ? Well my answer to that is yes. Good couples may not have fights ever but maybe that’s because they are not communicating their feelings. Great couples like I believe we were besides from our last fight are able to overcome any obstacle .
Just like we did. You gave me confidence to pass my pilot test because I knew someone that loved me was cheering me on. I never had fear flying because if anything ever got scary I can just think of going home to you and all the troubles in the world would go away. Just like I hope I gave you the confidence to do better at school and go to your exam you woke up late for.
Do you also remember when we used to be scared that maybe one or the other doesn’t like each other as much. I promised you that day I love you without an inch of doubt in me and I will walk through hell for you. Well I’d like to think that I at least metaphorically did that these past couple months having to experience life without you . I flew over 18 mile creek lately and thought about how fun it was to go hiking there and every else with you.

I know this is a lot to ask of you given what has happened between us, but I would like you to think about possibly meeting up somewhere maybe like white rabbit because I know you like that place a lot sometime just as a friend and catch up a bit. Theres a lot of new and exciting things happening in my life and I would like to share the exciting news with you.
I will give you time to think about it and when you are ready, get in touch with me. If I don’t hear from you then I will assume this is not something you want to do, I will understand and will not bother you again. I hope that your having fun at school the pictures you used to show me of it looked awesome.

I do wish you the best in life and I thank you for all the fun times we had