Hi All

First time poster and wanted to try and get some help.

Over the last week i have been experiencing anxiety and worry and to the point i cannot get out of my own head. I have been married a year and half and in a relationship for just under 5 years. Never had any doubts until recently. Last week after a bad sexual experience i stared to have a panic attack and question if i loved her. Since then i’m going round and round. Our relationship has been bad for a little while. We used to fight but we don’t anymore then we got into this sort of nothingness. I was just in my own world doing hobbies and seeing friends thinking nothing of it, until this happened.

In the last week i’m not eating or sleeping and its just getting to me. I think the world of her and really don’t want to lose what we have. The bit that got me more confused is since this has happend, I find myself missing her when away from her and cuddling into her every night. Yet i find myself unable to spend any real time and only have a desire to regress to my bed with her by my side. I told her i was feeling this way last night and she was devastated. I said i didn’t want to give up on us and wanted to try and save this.

In review i can see its me that has caused this. Shes not perfect but my laziness to the relationship in all aspects has affected this in some way.

I am still going round and round. Not sure if I’ve fallen out of love (and if so can i get that back) or if something has just scared me and now i’m afraid in some way. I also realized my life is not the best in other aspects (Work, pressure to save for a house, Pressure on social obligations). Just so confused. What i really don’t want to do is walk away from this for the wrong reasons.

Can anyone offer any advice.