Hi Liss,

I have a very similar story to yours except I live in Canada.  I am not religious, I consider myself to be spiritual/pagan and I’m not invested in the material consumerist culture either. My mother didn’t take her divorce well either so my sister and I overcompensated and were very  well-behaved as kids, we never went out to parties, we never drank or smoked… We spent all our time at home with my mom helping her and making sure that she didn’t feel lonely.  The problem is that I never was able to find any “community” of like minded people to myself, or any social groups because I was/am shy …. And now that I’m 23 I’m the one who’s lonely. The easiest thing for me to solve this would to be to go to church, and join a religion; But honestly, I can’t. It’s not in my heart and I don’t believe it.  So I just remain a loner.

I don’t have a solution for you, but I understand your loneliness. Quite often I find myself crying because I consider the fact that I may never have friends, or get married, or have children. And it breaks my heart.

I hope you read this, and find comfort in knowing you’re not alone in this situation

Sincerely,

N

I’m almost the same as you, almost in my 40’s and always regarded as being different from the normal. I have the same fears as you are but I have learned to accept everything. I try my best to do what is right, whether people accept or don’t accept me for that, I really don’t have to care as long as I don’t hurt anybody. Although I can still feel sad, I always think of our Creator that is just a heartbeat away from me. I find solace in nature, that everything and everyone has a purpose. Learn to meditate and pray, it will be help.  You may be solitary but you’re never alone.