My dear girl!
How very young you are and how you dont enjoy what you already have 🙂 Stop stressing and enjoy what you have. The love you so need is within you because if you dont find the joy and love and calmness within you, I am sure you wont find the fullness with anyone else. You are so young, you have so much to learn, so much to grow (and so much pain to see, which is part of the deal called life).
So you have had the opportunity to study in so many different countries, meeting so many amazing people, getting all these brilliant internships and doing all these amazing thing thru your own effort…yet all of this loses value because at 22 you dont have the love you want?? Im sorry, but do you know how ridiculous that sounds???! Dear girl, give yourself a lot more credit than that-you are depleting your efforts and your self worth by not appreciating it! Forgive me but it IS selfish that you arent appreciating what you have – as one of the comments mentioned, you need to remember what you HAVE now are things people die to have. Education, opportunities, safety!
Find joy in your now otherwise you wont ever find it, no matter what you achieve. And with love, there is nothing wrong with you! You will find it when it is time and when you are whole on your own. Stop stressing, live and breath a little!
It is really up to you to snap yourself out of it and ask yourself what kind of a person you want to be – someone who prays for love and a man to ‘lure’ you (at 22!!!), is not happy with whatever she gets OR someone who wants to become a fuller human being, stronger, wiser with a life full of love (and love in so many forms).
Romantic love is just ONE form of happiness, it is sad to see you make the whole world out of it and ignore the other true blessing you have. You make the choice.
Warmth and peace your way
Lily.
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